I've never quite got to ideation. My wife helped pull me back from that. While I don't think I'm worthless, I frequently feel useless.
Being a man isn't easy right now. Defining one is difficult (I'm "cis" but not manly).
You have to find acceptance somewhere. And try to find worth ≠ achievement.
If you happen to still support me on my FibroJedi Patreon, then I've just done an update on:
1. My "health"
2. Recent Games
3. Self-care app
4. What to do if you want something back for still supporting me.
Thank you,
FJ
#chronicpain #gaming #lotro #ffxiv
A landscape photo with a tall, bare tree on the left, a gradually inclining hill in the background. In the sky the sun is peeking through "waves" of fluffy clouds.
Hey folks, just dropping a casual update. My health is still sucky and it's been a challenge just doing housework and generally surviving.
I've had to choose between doing a "thing" or gaming, and the "thing" has been more important recently. And trying to exercise a bit more.
But I still exist.
@waterfox.net hey, I couldn't see if you had plans for container tabs on mobile? I've just found that WebLibre does, but I've tried so many mobile "privacy browsers", I just want one. Are containers in your roadmap, or have I just failed to find them?
A stylized portrait of a teal-and-cream dragon named Luthirenne posed in a semi-seated position against a muted purple background with a thin glowing rectangular frame. The dragon has smooth, dark teal scales with a pale cream underside and large wings folded partly open, showing soft beige membranes. A long, fin-like mane of translucent aqua frills flows from the head down the neck and tail, giving a watery, elegant appearance. Luthirenne wears delicate gold jewelry draped across the chest with small pink accents. The dragon’s expression is playful and slightly curious, with bright pink eyes and a small smile, one claw lifted near the mouth in a thoughtful gesture. The name 'Luthirenne' appears vertically along the left side, and the piece is labeled 'After Silence' and signed 'Hatwolf 2026.'
Luthirenne prefers to be alone. She becomes terribly anxious around others, constantly worrying her venomous scales might accidentally hurt someone. But if you manage to pique her curiosity, you might make her forget her fears... even if it is just for a moment.
#Art #AfterSilence #Fantasy #Dragon
The back of our garden, with a row of tall conifers and one Crabapple Tree. Snow is falling, which you can see clearly in front of the dark green trees.
🎵🎶 Iiiii'm dreamin'
of a whiiiite
Easter 🎶🎵
#StormDave #Snow #wth
😆😆😆
Oh wow, that's clever. I don't think I'd've ever found it. Nicely done!
Photo of a sketch on a green cloth with a technical pen under. The sketch depicts a detail landscape with high cliffs, trees and in the middle a big red tree in front of a white orb. Somewhere are a samurai and a cat. Technical pens and indian ink on a5 paper.
Daily sketch ⚪️🥷🐈⬛️
Can you spot the cat and the samurai (chatmuraï) ?
I'm pretty proud of this one 😎
#art #artsky #ink #sketch
Are these close?
Fab drawing, love it!
Apologies to ALT-text readers, the second image of the goat mount should have read "Shaggy" and not "Saggy". Those things are very different and the goat is definitely not sagging under my character's weight. 😜🐐
#LOTRO #LOTROfamily
My main LOTRO character in the new checked daffodil dress (though I dyed it a different shade of purple). She's sat on a wooden jetty, next to a white goat kid that has a little goatee beard and side-tufts.
My main LOTRO character sat on the newest goat mount from Spring Festival. It is a saggy white goat, with a long eye-hiding fringe. Material is draped over its back in two-tone purples and several tassles are hanging down the sides from it. Towards the rear are faux daffodils to finish the piece. The nose-trap is mostly a simple strap but in purple and decorated with tiny daffodils.
My main LOTRO Character facing away from the camera. She's wearing a short-sleeved green top, and a purple-backed cloak with large embroidered daffodils on it. The character herself has a circle of flowers around her head. The scene is a pond, with lush grasses of varying shades of green, sprouting daffodils and large patches of purple flowers too. A Hobbit-hole, which is actually the village butcher, is on the path below her.
I've been too ill, in too high pain or unable to look at large screens for a while. But I finally made it to @officiallotro.bsky.social's Spring Festival.
Love the goat pet and mount this year, and adding the Clegur area adds something a bit different too, in a good way I mean!
#LOTRO #LOTROfamily
Recently I've had my #Fibro meds increased so can game a bit. Hoping to get into #LOTRO for Spring Fest tomorrow.
I'm writing again, and have been doing woodwork. Although I'd intended less gaming, but not doing any hasn't been a choice.
I realised I hadn't updated Bluesky folks on my general Socials silence.
For most of the last 2 months I've had ridiculous pain and been mostly unable to use my PC, only rarely gaming, due to headaches.
1/2
This shows a screenshot from the Conqueror app. It depicts a mountain shaped item with a Hobbit Hole door surrounded by trees. At the top it says "The Lord of the Rings". Under that it says "Conqueror". At the bottom it says "The Shire" Distance: 145 miles Time Goal: 140 days Completed in 81 days.
I finished my first #Conqueror virtual challenge. My MIL bought it as a Christmas present, as I'm generally difficult to buy for.
I've been trying to exercise more for about about year, but this #LOTR theme is an interesting way to go about it.
"YOU CAN DRAW BAD AND ITS OK." - yeah, I still need to learn this one. Thanks for the reminder.
Hey folks,
It's too late at night/early in the morning to do a personal update, but if you're still on my FibroJedi Patreon, then there's a post for you.
www.patreon.com/posts/where-...
If you're not there, then in 4 days time that post goes live for the world.
Thanks.
#LOTRO #FFXIV #SWTOR
🤣🤣
And the Hobbits thought rumours of one walking tree was bad enough. Though that might just be a #lotro thing, rather than lore...
Either way, they won't want Ents crashing around 😆
A shot from the Conqueror Challenges app that says: Congratulations. You have now planted 3 trees. You have passed the 60% milestone on The Shire. A row of 5 trees shows 3 in-colour green trees, and two greyed out trees with padlocks on them.
I'm using a combination of a #Conqueror challenge and Pokémon Go as bribery to keep me walking.
In the past, I couldn't quantify my exercise in the context of #Fibromyalgia management. I'm still walking less than 2 miles a day, but that's an improvement.
Uhm.. o_O
A pure text screenshot from a blog. It reads: "We will review the best styluses for drawing on android later in this article. But before that, take a look at some relevant products on Amazon"
"Before you read the article you came here to read, here are my affiliate links".
Aaand back to the search results. 🙄
Today, I've either been in tons of pain, or had massive energy crashes.
But my blog's #LOTRO & # FFXIV content is now (mostly) redirecting to where it will be "archived". I'm just waiting on a couple of tweaks from others, then everything will be set.
A bit weird doing this, but it feels right.
Thank you. We've almost finished moving my site to the LOTRO Wiki as an archive. While I won't be updating the rewards for the guides, unless an event is overhauled completely, the guides themselves will be preserved. :)
This program is, I think, suited to those who would already call themselves influencers. Probably those who can afford to live off their content, you know?
I kinda understand as it has to meet commercial aims and highly promote LOTRO.
I was definitely right to stop blogging. It's not "big" enough.
These requirements are stricter than those SWTOR expected 10 years ago. Admittedly, we didn't get much in return.
Even when I was blogging about LOTRO regularly, it was 3-4/month because of the prep time.
I wouldn't have qualified even if I'd wanted to apply (before I chose to stop blogging).
A screenshot from SWTOR, a rare one of me playing a male Cathar. Not that you can tell as he's asleep, on his back, with his head facing away from the camera.
If my site is running a bit slow, folks, it's because I broke my local #apache installation and so I'm having to create an export from the live site.
I'll have to leave this running and go get meds & sleep. And de-stress, because that was kinda the point.
G'night / #StaySafe
A simple screenshot of my main FFXIV character, in a green forest, wearing a simple pale brown and white tunic, and carrying flowers in a side-bag. She's waving and smiling slightly.
I just wanted to say thank you to you all for your kind words about the blog.
I'm still fighting a bug of my own while also sorting out where different content is being shipped, so not much social "juice" around.
But everyone's been amazing. Thank you.
#LOTRO #FFXIV #SWTOR
Bullroarer has opened with a new preview of Update 46.1! Get more information in the LOTRO Forums: forums.lotro.com/index.php #LOTRO
Applications are now open for the LOTRO Creator Program! Learn more about this collaborative effort for content creators on LOTRO.com: https://www.lotro.com/news/lotro-creator-program-en #LOTRO
Bless you, thanks for doing this :-)
I /have/ figured out how to export most of the site to HTML, but...I also appear to have mislaid some in the export.
I'm going to have to rerun the whole thing, but it looks like there were 100 SWTOR ones. If you want me to ZIP them & ping you a link just say!