I just went on a youth retreat of 80 people from 13 churches. I was the only one wearing a mask & was asked twice (by teens) why I was wearing one

I wish a mask wasn't necessary since it makes it harder to blend into the background, but I don't want long COVID or to get someone else sick

Last night I was torn between dressing up for church service or being comfortable/lazy. So I grabbed ankle boots to wear with my flannel top & skinny jeans. I got compliments from my friends for being dressy while my trans roommate said I looked "Ranch chic" in a nonbinary way. So it was a success?!

#TAMW people tell you that you seem so chill, but you're actually just very good at masking your near-constant anxiety around others

Yes, I know there is a need for a Queer Christian group, hence when I finally started one. But I am not solo-leadership material & nobody has stepped up to help me so I am struggling with this group & the (possible) SAD and/or burnout is not helping right now *sigh*

Just had a phone call with someone in my church's office. On the one hand, they were like "your group isn't considered a church ministry for scheduling" but then they're like "who would you like to talk with to restructure this group to keep it here since it's such an important ministry to have"

QT reblogged my post & I still randomly get notifications, usually just for kudos.

Last night I received the following note & idk what to think about it:

"I don’t know if you’re actually a minister but I would love for you to be mine. I’ve seen your blog you seem so kind and understanding"

4 summers ago, I sewed together a vest that was ace colors on the back & aro colors in the front. I wore it to pride with a shirt from Queer Theology underneath. I posted photos on Tumblr & tagged QT without thinking much about it since I'm not a popular blog at all

Cashier: since it's slow, can I ask: Do you use AI?

Me: No

Cashier: Why?

Me: (runs through various reasons & possible counter arguments)

Me: ....just no.... (quickly taps card & avoids eye contact)

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My ND brain doesn't like being put on the spot, esp over something so controversial

Screenshot of recent activity log, white writing on black background 6:40 PM Evening bike ride 19 minutes 54 seconds 3.75 miles 7:01 PM Evening walk 15 minutes 22 seconds 0.1 miles 8:31 PM Evening bike ride 14 minutes 43 seconds 3.44 miles

A week ago it was a high of 20*F with half a foot of snow on the ground. Today it got to 55*F with no rain. So I took advantage of the warm weather by biking to church for choir

Every so often over the last few days, I remember that today would have been my dad's 75th anniversary & that he hated being reminded of his birthday so I shouldn't acknowledge it? Maybe I'll text my aunt (my dad's sister)

Any good app alternatives for podcasts?

I keep seeing posts about what alternatives to use for listening to music, but I'm of the ND kind that only listens to one or two artists so already have songs downloaded as mp3s. I mostly use Sp*tify for listening to podcasts

While wearing my Captain Kirk and tribbles costume, someone stopped and asked "Are you being attacked by tribbles?!"

Me: "Yes!"

Person: "Great! Well, not great that you're being attacked by tribbles but a great costume! Well done!"

#TAMW a 4 y/o randomly asks you "Are you a girl?" & you don't know what to say since you don't even know yourself but don't want to lie....

I ended up just saying "Sometimes, but not always". Her mom is on the church staff and seems to be advocating for more queer outreach/welcome

Just barely was able to get the covid vaccine yesterday by having the CVS minute clinic person enter my height & weight for BMI. So annoying

I'm not feeling well today & probably should have called off sick. Then I wouldn't have been 30 mins late to work due to the bus breaking down & me walking to another bus line

#TAMW you're trying to brown stir fry rice according to the package directions & you notice the numbers on the air purifier are quickly climbing....

Made it to over 500, so I took the rice off the heat as I added water. Now it's in the 90s & still falling

Ugg, I hate performance reviews & having to defend myself.

I'm so glad that I elected to do a short 20min coffee meeting instead of an hour plus lunch meeting.

Unfortunately the company has elected to implement twice a year reviews so I'll have to do this again in 6 months

I just finished re-reading one of my own fanfics from years ago that I need to add to AO3 & omg it's so cute!

I might be aro (& ace) but I can write some really cute happy endings; although it is a struggle to get to them

Me: Since I'm moving, I should probably just order a new bed

My married sister: we have a spare solid wood bedframe if you want it

Me: Maybe, what size is it?

Sister: probably a queen

Me, an acearo single person: No thanks, it's a pretty small bedroom, so I think I'll stick with a twin bed

Today was one of those "I'm not feeling great but don't want my siblings to know so I'm gonna go to work anyways but am now regretting that decision" days.

Can't wait until I move, that'll be one less anxiety to worry about

Me while watching 30+ crows hanging out at the rapid station: Hitchcock's The Birds is such a creepy movie....hmm, maybe that's why I get super anxious in the butterfly room at the botanical gardens....

Youth leader just texted me info about Sunday school tomorrow & I just want to text back "Thanks! Now go to sleep" but I don't want him to know that I am also awake after 1:30am....

Ended up missing my bus so had to wait an extra half hour

Got home to find my sister didn't work today so could have called. She seems unconcerned about the potential loss of water

My brother called at 5pm, says we got a water shut-off notice & asks if I could call the water company since he tried during lunch but was on hold. I found out the issue is that the sewer bill is overdue but I couldn't understand the person about how to resolve while landlord is out of the country

Trying not to get too frustrated by a lot of little things this first night of mission trip. Hopefully things get better

Had a dream that I showed up to the mission trip with only half my stuff? Like I forgot to pack/bring a bunch of things.

Now I'm a little paranoid that I'll forget something major while packing & have to run home & miss something important

But does it cost more than getting another car? Can you get a second opinion?

Me: Ugg, I have so much to do & still need to pack before leaving for mission trip tomorrow evening

Also me: First I'm gonna go on an hour bike ride before it gets too hot, but I'm actually gonna make it like 90mins (15.8 miles) & only stop b/c I have to log onto work at a specific time....

Even though I've been consistently helping with the youth group for 3 years and one of the few regulars, it's still so weird for me to refer to myself as a youth leader when I'm reaching out to people

Currently watching the live stream of a reinstatement service for two queer clergy of the UMC and it's making me more emotional than I expected even though I don't know either of them

The UMC (& other churches) has done so much harm & this is barely a dent in the process of healing & reconciliation