Made it up one flight of stairs from the basement to the main lounge yesterday. My goodness it was painful. Upside is I now have access to a loo that's not in the locked office so I don't have to ring my key worker at 2am cos I need to pee. Got my laptop & radio & a much comfier sofa.

So on Sunday I dislocated my knee and tore all the ligaments in the same leg I'd just got the boot off. Had to get the paramedics in to get me off the floor, cue LOTS of entonox and swearing. I'm now stuck in the basement lounge as I can't do stairs & thoroughly feel sorry for myself.

I'm so sorry. Nothing I can say will make any difference but I see you and I understand your reactions. Services are shite but you know that. Sending love 💜 and hugs 🤗

Welcome back home. And to those little creature comforts that make all the difference. As for the typos, I still make them on a phone (thank goodness for autocorrect (most of the time)).

#3GoodThings:
1. My foot has healed sufficiently to not have to wear the boot anymore
2. New guy who moved in today (next door to me) seems ok & not like he'll be any trouble
3. I ate half a pizza for lunch, it took me a while & a lot of coaxing from my key worker but I managed it.

Just had an x-ray and my foot has almost healed. There's just a hairline crack left now so I can ditch the boot! First time in 10 weeks I have 2 free feet. Not gonna lie though, it feels really strange.

Well done for tackling it. Mine is in a pile on the floor, ironically in front of my chest of drawers but my executive function can't get me to put it away in drawers.

Caffeine, nicotine, a fortisip and some Percy Pigs are an adequate lunch, aren't they? My key worker (going up & beyond by contacting me at the weekend when she's technically not working) seems to think I need something more substantial. I can't explain that my brain just won't let me have anymore.

Came back home yesterday. Nice to be back in my own surroundings & away from my dad, although saying that he's still making my life hell by ringing me & yelling or being generally rude. I don't want to talk to him but I have a fear that if I don't answer then something awful might have happened.

Good 😊

Hope your day is going better now. Hugs 🤗

Oh Carrie, I'm so sorry. I know you gave her the best 7 years she could have had. Sending love 💜 and hugs 🤗

They're referring him to the rehab charity to help him cut down. He says he'll just quit but I've warned him about that being dangerous. The GP also reminded him that he has to take his thiamine and vitamin B meds to protect his brain. I don't think he was happy being told what to do.

Been to the GP with my dad. Looks like all his physical stuff is related to alcoholism. He said he'll cut down & quit to the dr. I may be being cynical but I've heard him say so many times before that he'll quit that I just don't believe it anymore. Of course he may prove me wrong but I doubt it.

It sounds like they listened to you. Hopefully it'll help. Remember that if it doesn't work out then you need more time off rather than to struggle through (this is completely alien advice for me as I just battle on through whilst learning it's not the best tactic).

Knitting in the egg chair sounds so relaxing. I can't knit but even just being in an egg chair sounds idyllic.

Take care of yourself 💜

My dad's eye test went ok & we chose new frames. They'll be ready in 2 wks when I'll be up again for Easter. Tried to enlighten my dad about autism and what it means for me but all he said was "but I do that" and I wanted to say "yes, that's because you're autistic" but I didn't have the energy.

I hope it's helpful 💜

Back at my dad's for a few days to help him with appointments. It's more difficult as I can't drive (broken foot & DVLA revoked my driving licence cos crisis team informed them I'm not stable - still mad at that). Feel like I'm on repeat saying the same things. Guess my dad's memory is v bad.

I want to thank each & every one of you who commented on my diagnosis post. I'm overwhelmed by the support. I don't have the energy to reply to everyone individually. I have therapy in an hour so will prob feel very drained again later. I was so exhausted last night I didn't sleep well.

They also said it's highly likely I have ADHD as well but referrals to the waiting list are closed for this region so I'd have to go private. I'll see what their report says and talk to my key worker in more detail about it. I have to say that the ADHD thing came as a surprise.

Autism assessment was very draining. 3 hours of in depth questioning of everything from childhood to today. The psychiatrist was very calm and kind which made me more at ease plus he knew what psoriatic arthritis is without explanation. The upside is I'm autistic, if it's an upside.

Thanks 😊. It was very in depth and emotionally draining but worth it as they said I'm autistic.

Thanks 😊. It was very draining but unsurprisingly they said I'm autistic so I guess it was worth it.

Thank you 😊 it was incredibly intense and in depth but they came to the conclusion I am autistic so self doubt wasn't needed and was just anxiety playing out.

Autism assessment day today. I'm really scared I've just self diagnosed and talked myself into thinking I have autism when I actually don't. This is countered by every professional I meet (inc the psychologist at the crisis team who has a special interest in neurodivergency) saying I probably am.

Now the steroids tears have hit. I can't handle this. I'm meant to be having a chilled out weekend before my autism assessment on Monday not restless, crying & feeling numb. Just taken a clonazepam as the steroid insomnia hit last night. At this point I might stop them & cope with earache.

That's frustrating about the delivery, I hope you get reunited with it

Sofa rest sounds like a good plan 💜