Isn't she though!? She was serving photogenic today, which is very rare for her!

My babygirl Pancake being absolutely stunning today.

#catsofbluesky #cats #Blackcat #cat

Some more WIP on Nekrosor, only the base as I'm getting close to done on the big guy himself, and wouldn't want to spoil it early ^.^

#necrons #gamesworkshop #wh40k #warhammer #minipainting #40k

Continuing work on Nekrosor, sorry for the rough photo!

#necrons #wh40k #warhammer #WIP #workinprogress #minipainting #gamesworkshop #nmm #miniatures #warhammer40k

Amaze amaze amaze!

Oh my gods. Contender for movie of the Year. Cried multiple times. Hopecore at a time when I really needed it. Absolutely getting it when it comes out. Now I need to read the book.

#projecthailmary

"The old world is dying, and the new world struggles to be born: now is the time of monsters." - Antonio Gramsci

It really is!! I've listened to the audio book twice now and I'm so excited to dive into this edition!

Decided to upgrade the Nekrosor's murder mittens.

#necrons #gamesworkshop #kitbash #ammentar #nekrosor #warhammer40k #wh40k #miniature #necron #necrontyr

Ahhhhh not only did I get my hands on #Nekrosor, but I also snagged the illustrated and annotated version of The Infinite and the Divine!! Plus a praetor to convert for my sharks!

#wh40k #necrons #gamesworkshop #carcharodons #theinfiniteandthedivine #Robertrath #warhammer40k #miniatures #book

You know what I can do about overwhelming depressive feelings? Paint. I can paint.

More work on #Carcharodons today.

With this, everyone of my girls have color on them. We have officially moved out of just primer.

#spacemarines #warhammer #40k #minipainting #spacesharks #tyberos #painting

So when someone asks me, "Are you okay"? I lose the ability to supress all of that completely, and it all comes crashing forward.

I'm tired. I'm stressed. I'm fucking angry. I'm exhausted. I'm worn thin from having to maintain multiple layers of hyper-vigilance. I'm crying every other fucking night to myself, and telling myself to just keep pushing, it's gonna be okay. Sure as shit doesn't feel like it.

That the world is at war once again and no one in the mainstream is brave enough to call it for what it is. That I need to think of plan to leave my family and friends for my safety if anti-trans policies go national. That even if I do go somewhere, that somewhere may not be safe in the long run.

(Porphyria, for those curious). That my country is speedrunning facism and total collapse. That transfolks like myself are being targeted at state levels and pushes for national levels, and gives massive red flags for a national, pre-genocidal scale.

I can't just *abstract* myself about it. I have a life and people I do care about very deeply and I am holding onto that to get through. But when I feel like I'm hurting those people just by my very existence it's so fucking hard to deal with. It's a me problem, I know.

I feel like a burden to everyone around me because I need to ask them for help. If I want to hang out with people or be included in things I need to ask them to bend their plans around my disability. My inability to just be out-fucking-side.

I'm not okay. I'm not holding up. I am fighting to tread water on a daily basis.

I am struggling to get through a very rough divorce. I am struggling with my genetic disorder getting worse, to a point now that I can't go out in daylight for even ten minutes anymore, even when covered up.

I lose all sense of composure at the end of that question and I can't stop the tears. I'm not mad at them for asking, it's ultimately appreciated, but I hate that I can't keep myself together with it. Because at the core of it?

I hate it when I'm feeling my lowest and someone asks me something along the lines of "Are you okay?" Or "How're you holding up?"

I hate it because the moment someone asks me that, I can't hold it back anymore, and I just completely break down.

This is my G̶o̶d̶c̶h̶i̶l̶d̶ son, Charcoal. He is a good boy kitty and has never ever done anything wrong in his entire little kitty life. He also tries to help play #warhammer

#cats #wh40k #gamesworkshop #carcharodons #nightlords #chaosspacemarines #catsofbluesky #kitty

3D Printable Minotaur Skeleton by Flesh of Gods PRESUPPORTED BY ATLAS! Size: Large - 50 mm base Scale: 32 mm | Download free and paid 3D printable STL files

It's a bone minotaur! You can get the stl here:
www.myminifactory.com/object/3d-pr...

Here have two!

My sharky decals for my sharky ladies came in!!!

#carcharodonsastra #carcharodons #saturnine #dreadnought #spacemarines #minipainting #miniatures

How I arrived on Bluesky

Wrapped up my Impulsor/Gladiator

#spacemarines #carcharodons #warhammer40k #gamesworkshop #wh40k #minipainting

It is now!

Thanks!! There are deffo some far better takes on it out there, but I appreciate it nonetheless!

Without going too far down the rabbit hole that is 40k lore, it's a model representing a fragment of a shattered Star God called a C'tan. This particular one is called the Nightbringer, and I painted it in my army's colors.

There's so much more I'm sure I could have done here, but I feel like I'm at a point where if I keep working on it, I'm going to overwork it and wind up messing up things I do like about it. So, here's my completed* Nightbringer.
#necrons #nightbringer #warhammer40k #wh40k #minipainting #stargod