Highblood and I are going to our first event together tomorrow. He’s already threatened to make me hump his boots for an audience 😳 #lazarusdiary

I had to safeword. For the first time ever. It was a scary medical episode and I felt a wash of shame immediately after but I now feel so lucky that it was with Highblood and I can trust him so deeply seeing how he acts under that sort of pressure. #lazarusdiary

So this is now a journal that Highblood will eventually expect access to, I will be aiming to more consistently share my kinky thoughts here to make for pleasing reading I suppose! #lazarusdiary

How insufferable will I be if I post about everything that happened with Highblood since new years? Our dynamic is not officially labelled but it’s evolving quickly and I melt every time he says “my boy” or “my puppy”. I didn’t realise I missed belonging to someone 🐶 #lazurusdiary #highblood

Tattoo under Lazarus’s collarbone that reads VOX DEI. A steel chain collar is also partially visible around his neck

Also new tattoo just dropped babes ft the chain I’ve been wearing locked on for over 3000 hours! Both approved by Highblood and I adore them both 🥰

Washed all my blankets and set my human pet bed back up I am such a happy puppy now with all my comfy den organised 🐶 #lazarusdiary

So you don’t mind if the sheets get ruined then..?

Okay definitely getting back to sharing all my unfiltered thoughts here.

But uh having him say he missed me while he’s inside me was top fucking tier.

Happy Tuesday!

#lazarusdiary

I need to get back to posting on here because I feel like the last few months of 2025 went a bit wild for me. Unfortunately I’m in a slump atm and sad about transition costs but soon I’ll be spamming the feed again! #lazarusdiary

WhatsApp message that says “How are you with being locked in a shockingly well made puppy cage?”

This is the only form of flirting I will now accept boys 🥰 #lazarusdiary

I feel like I’m radioactive after that breakup and river and snapdragon are rightfully so keeping their distance from the fall out but man my feelings are so achey rn #lazarusdiary

I have a date with Snapdragon tomorrow, I have written them a short letter about my feelings. I have no idea how they’re going to respond but it feels most true to be a little cheesy and romantic towards them. I really like them and hope they can see I’m serious about this
#lazarusdiary

Hooking up with River (picked a name for him!) is so much fun but now there’s inside jokes with him and Snapdragon (the hot as hell partner) and we spent several hours just laying around on the couches and chatting and it felt so nice… now the what are we conversation 🙈
#lazarusdiary

Quotes from time with the hottie (he really needs a nickname at this point):

“You can’t unfrot me fucker!”

#lazarusdiary

Um actually I suck dick for the macros and the gains we are not the same. 💅

Not to brag but he told me “I just love sucking your dick so fucking much I want to do it every day… and I’ve sucked a lot of dick including your boyfriend” so we will be riding that high for a while #Lazarusdiary

THERES SO MANY UPDATES WITH THIS GUY. AND HIS PARTNER. THEYRE ALSO GREAT AND THEYRE SO GOOD TOGETHER. FUCK I AM COOKED.

#Lazarusdiary

I want to wear his teeth marks on my flesh like kisses, the way the bliss takes over when he scrapes them up my neck and threatens to take a bite.

Yes this about Mr Shoot my Shot.

#Lazarusdiary

in the interest of national security im gonna have to ask you to cum with me

I will continue the shooting my shot saga but what do you mean there’s bruises on my thighs in the shape of his fingertips. I am going feral over this 🥵 💦 #lazarusdiary

Weirdly you somehow many it to step three where you escape the Feeld chat and now you’re whatsapping each other and it’s hot and flirty and oh my god he’s a delight to talk to as well! And oh dear now you’re smiling at your phone when he replies 🙈 you are down bad you horny mutt

And then step two is send a ping on Feeld that just says ‘smash 😘’ and nothing else because you kinda assume it’s not going to go anywhere but hey what’s the worst that can happen for shooting your shot.

Uh he replies and you don’t know how to react because it wasn’t meant to go anywhere!

Step one is chat and mildly flirt at events once every two months and nothing in between while just thinking he is too hot to be interested. Plot twist he was thinking the same thing about me as well at the exact same time. Something something too gay to function.

What happens when you shot your shot with that hot guy and essay by me (this is purely for my own enjoyment) 🔥 #lazarusdiary

Pin me to the wall by my throat and tell me to relax because the fear ruins the meat 🤤

Oh. My. God. 🔥 this is seriously so hot and has got me thinking about plugging again… got any toy recs on that front? 👀

Lazarus in an furrjoi Ido hood in black with red lock detail. Against a white wall in a canvas strap jacket. A string of drool leaks from the hood’s mouth tube onto a wet spot on the straight jacket.

If not fuckhole, why fuckhole shaped? 💦 hood by @furrjoi.com #fuckhole #furrjoihood #idohood #drone #drool #shinytoy #straightjacket #obedientchewtoy

One month left in Our spring contest to help keep the playroom up and running through the end of the year! We’ve already had 10 people enter, and We’re really grateful for the support. If We hit $10K by the end of the month, I’ll choose an additional two winners. Good luck, and thank you!!

💪𝐒𝐮𝐩𝐞𝐫 𝐋𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐲 𝐆𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲

When we get to 10,000 followers, we'll pick one person to win a complete set of gear, including headgear, a bodysuit, gloves, and footwear.

🎈𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐓𝐨 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐞

FOLLOW FOLLOW FOLLOW and RT

It will ignite once it reaches the powerful milestone of 10,000 followers!🔥❤️‍🔥

The stickers at nipples covers are genius! You seriously look great, love seeing you in a different aesthetic 💙❤️