going to sleep now and feel very prone to crying and I feel a little off which is frustrating because I have to get up at 3am and go to my first day at the local Amazon so I was hoping to feel better but i'll be fine

#firstday #work #anxiety #bpd

I miss my partner its been 2 weeks since we've found time to do a call and then had to put the call off and I feel very sad about it but I know we'll get to eventually and I know it'll be so nice to see his face and hear his voice :)

#longdistance #kindasad

I should like actively work on making my art better... why do I only seriously think about these things when I get sick.... well sicker than usual

My little pixel art Dwaekki I made. It's Changbin's mascot I guess its a pig rabbit called a Dwaekki. I gave it a little Skz hoodie and some eyeliner.

Screencap of The Untamed with Lan Wangji/Lan Zhan pictured but the quote 'As we evaluate others' is being said by Lan Xichen.

Screencap of The Untamed with Lan Xichen pictured saying 'we shall not label them as black or white'.

Screencap of The Untamed with Lan Xichen saying 'but know their deep intentions inside.'

I feel both significantly more and significantly less mentally ill than I did before pouring my heart and soul into fandoms for the first time and making GIF sets and screencaps and fanart

#skz #straykids #modaozushi #theuntamed #changbin #dwaekki #weiying #weiwuxian #lanzhan #lanwangji #wangxian

Reminded of people that were once my friends 😞

starting the movie out with what I assume is the main character talking on the phone on a plane loudly while everyone is boarding makes me hate everyone already lmao

The switch flipped and I'm not currently crashing out so im gonna post about Primate while I'm watching it because it seems like it's gonna be stupid

I need to fall back asleep i cant handle being awake

Tired of existing too

feel like I'll regret deleting my accounts more than I will completely crashing out so here we go

Might fuck around and delete all my social media again and have a mental breakdown

I wish I wasn't so agoraphobic

I'm living the dream

Bout to have multiple panic attacks while trying to make my makeup look okay while knowing I cant make myself look femme enough for my dysphoria to be helped in any way and then probably have another panic attack over going to the bar and then probably not even going anywhere

I didn't wake up to cry I woke up to fuck up my sleep schedule and watch homoerotic C-dramas get with the fucking program Brain

I need a hug

desperately missing my old queer bar in Knoxville and karaoke there and not being so agoraphobic that I can't do anything

I need to deal with my agoraphobia its getting really bad- I've been out maybe 3 or 4 times in the almost 3 weeks since moving up to Iowa

a man in a red shirt is being touched by a woman in a red shirt ALT: a man in a red shirt is being touched by a woman in a red shirt

Wen Ning got the most pinchable cheeks

Image inspired by the Japanese stage play Mo Dao Zu Shi. As they say goodbye, the actor playing Wei Wuxian becomes emotional and holds his hand to his face to hide his emotion. The actor playing Lan Wangji puts his arm around his waist and holds him close to encourage him.

I recently rewatched the Japanese stage play and it made me want to draw some more drawings inspired by it. This one shows the farewell moment, where the talented actor who plays Wei Wuxian gets emotional and the actor who plays Lan Wangji encourages him. They were so sweet!💕
#mdzs #wangxian

All the people that have met me after august last year probably think my life is always chaos and im never havung a good time :,(

How embareasing

Picture of my mom's cat Olli resting his head on my lap.

Another slightly less zoomed in pic of Olli resting his head on my lap while sleeping

snoozing cat

The prettiest Chinese men making me cry
#TheUntamed #BinYu #XiaoZhan #WangYiBo

I'm still awake this is unfortunate

I love the complete lack of critical thinking this man in the movie is showing:

'Since the cervical vertebrae is close to the brain, it has caused permanent paralysis' - movie doctor

'You mean he'll be paralyzed for life?' -dude in movie

A movie poster for the movie The Boxer's Omen. Green background with 2 blue heads with red eyes superimposed over each other with the one behind being much larger and a green figure at the bottom behind the title.

Watching The Boxer's Omen on AMC+ instead of sleeping

i love when there's a mascot. i love when the mascot is a little bear

Go listen to some music you would otherwise not give a chance. And listen with intent.

My albums may be 100% unlistenable but I feel like a real artist lol

I would like it to still be dark outside