Not that I have ever been mentally well, now with my depression and anxiety.

But I was not mentally well then.... so... yeah.

At moments when I am mentally vulnerable, at times I do wonder what will happen if I just stop working back then and properly rest when the doctor told me to. I know it was not meant to be but... haa...

I can't help but think of that child, if I could carry that child to term

Female #kakapo are utterly focussed on their chicks. Stella came back to the nest while I was checking her very young chicks two nights ago. Apparently unconcerned by me being there, she jumped in and started brooding them in front of me. #conservation #parrots #birds #kakapo2026

When assessing #kakapo chicks we weigh them, check their respiration rate and hydration. We usually do this twice in the first four days (this chick is less than a day old), and then every 5-7 days. The frequency of checks depends on their genetic priority. #kakapo2026 #conservation #parrots

🌟🀄rkgk

I dont remember my password or the email I used it in... HAAHHAHAHAHAAHHAHA

Really think that maybe I should go back to tumblr again for some of my... longer... umamusume rants

Morning.

She is sooooooo cutr

#ウマ娘
#シュヴァルグラン

Is she your favorite horse girl?
ライスシャワー
#ウマ娘　#UMAMUSME #AI

「あら？どうして笑ってますの…？」
#ウマ娘

冬のアマさん、あまりにも「彼女」

#ウマ娘 #umamusume

#ウマ娘　
#ライスシャワー　
雪遊びライス

mangaka friends 🖋️💚

#art #umamusume #ウマ娘 #キセキ #tamagotchi

It is so hard to concentrate and I have A LOT of deadlines... I need to do this, I need additional money before I move to Japan...

It is nice for the 'romance' to make Sirius's problem revolves SOLELY around and caused BY Rudolf, making the talk about codependency and situationship and all that, but I find it such an erasure, an irony, on Sirius's personal development in her career event scenario. I simply dont prefer that

The credits image.

finished the 2034 scenario for Tokyo 7th Sisters.

it’s hard to overstate how much this work resonated with me. my eyes were turning red because i was tearing up from how much the work believes in artistic expression and character growth in spite of capitalism/“adult world”.

it made me hope again.

Misunderstanding, miscommunication, unspoken feelings stemming from the inability to accept and acknowledge one's own feelings, are all there indeed and they are not due to a lack of care, there is even probably too much of it but was never addressed properly.

IMO blaming Rudolf's "emperorness" for Sirius's problems and painted it all as Rudolf "ignoring Sirius" are totally off the mark. Rudolf does show care and actively tries to reach out. Sirius aggresively answered it all. They ARE different and that caused the rift, but "neglect"?

Like, *the entire point* of Sirius's career is her finally being honest to herself, that she does have those "ugly feelings" towards Rudolf and those are separate with her *own* dreams. Once Sirius accept that and finally honestly run to her dreams, her run shines. THAT IS THE ENTIRE POINT??

Sirius *IS* hurting, deeply, but it isn't directly Rudolf's fault, it's because the present Rudolf isnt the old Rudolf Sirius knew, and Sirius also struggled to *accept* that she has strong feelings to Rudolf, that HER problem to accept, not Rudolf. Why BLAME Rudolf for that?

I disagree whenever I see someone painting Rudolf as "neglectful" to Sirius because Rudolf chose to be emperor. Rudolf has her own dreams, Sirius's pain is not Rudolf's "responsibility". Rudolf also actively tries to mend their relationship, yet Sirius rejected it as it wasn't 'what she meant'.

Been struggling with this tooth pain for like over one year. Got root canals and all (they are their own problem), turned out it's an infection in my jawbone. Wonderful

I love Sirius is full of contradictions. She hates lies, yet she has been 'lying' or rather 'running away' from admitting her feelings about Rudolf--jealousy, affection, fixation, everything. That hurt her so much, too. She's so human. She and Rudolf are two sides of the same coin

I have difficulty sleeping

Again

My husband is back home

Only a week but I am happy

My new workplace giving me a room complete with A brand new PC, kettle, microwave, etc.