The biggest sign I'm actually in a declining depressive state?

I can't even get thru 20 pgs / 1 chapter of the book I'm reading ...
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Fuck me, just let it* fade to black already
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#depression #depressed #gettingworse #kms

why do I almost always feel like the most worthless, unlovable piece of garbage after I hang out with my friends?

logically I know it's not true, but my brain just won't stop feeding me this self hating drivel
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#depression #anxiety #selfloathing #garbage #alonetodie

Why did no one tell me going to a concert by yourself is actually great
I get to shoulder my way right to the front w/o being mindful of space for a +1
Dance and sing my heart out and just fully enjoy myself without checking in with anyone
Would do again
Highly recommend

My workplace has always been a bit of a hellhole, but the last couple of weeks have truly made it into a "burning to a ground" type of hellhole.
Tomorrow I'm going to start seriously applying for new jobs and take this more serious
I can't be here for another winter/ xmas

Just finished onboarding for the VQFF and I'm so excited!! This is going to be so fun - and most fun of all is the queer afterparty hosted by Vico Ortiz?!?!?!?!!! 🤩💖👯‍♂️

No cheating, post the last pic of your pet

A picture of a laptop background showing two adelie penguins standing side by side, almost "holding hands" (if they had hands!)

I changed my laptop background to rotating pictures of penguins and it has brought me immense happiness

Threefold goddess but instead of maiden/mother/crone she's tank/healer/dps

why is it every time I take an extended period of time off work, I come back to utter chaos
like nothing is organised, things are barely done....
and of course the second I step into the building everyone immediately starts asking me twenty questions
i can't be the only competent person here, pls

A newly caston project sits on a printed sheet with the beginning of a pattern written on it. To the right of the project sits a blue pen. The yarn is a light grey colour, the caston a circular, in the round project. Yarn is from "Mailles à Part" merino yak in colour naturel.

so it begins...
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#knitsky #caston #knitting #yarn #wip #newproject #newknit #itllbeasweateroneday

Like Cottage Country is sooo beautiful and its own thing as well -
That area is so gorgeous and its own diverse thing
Why the hell are they filming in BC???

I was on Bowen Island and most of the area down by the pier was closed for filming
Googled to see what it was being filmed - an adaptation of a Canadian book based in Ontario Cottage Country
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THERE ARE CLEARLY MOUNTAINS
THERE'S NO WAY IT PASSES FOR ONTARIO
I -

oh boy, I sure do love anxiety set agoraphobia trapping me inside on such a beautiful day
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love the exec dysfunction of sitting here, knowing I should/want to do something, but unable to move
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love feeling like a failure, on the verge of a panic attack
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this is a great gift, thanks brain

oh gosh, but I kinda love this in today's hindsight - feels kinda like an ai mishap 😅
but also how confusing Mr Borges! You can't just cite real *and* made-up sources

This is my favourite guy - the peryton!
Half deer, half eagle, and is said to to be born from the souls of those lost at sea. They can have a human shadow, reflecting the soul within them.
Not a lot of info is out there on these guys, but they're my favourite - so much so I got it tattooed!

A hand holds two hands of yarn, in a colourway ranging from black to pink and blue.

Photo of yarn for oggling 😻🙂‍↕️🧶

Love going to the yarn store, browsing the wares for like 15 in silence, and then when I get to cash having the most animated convo with the owner

Thanks Black Sheep Yarns for the most gorge yarn, and the chat about sweaters v socks
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#knitsky #knitting #lys #yarnstore #yarn

Graffiti on bus stop glass that reads "kill the cis person in your head"

already on it -
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kill the cis person in your head
#trans #transthings #nocisallowed #enby #nonbinary

Just finished my first volunteer shift with VQFF! It was a lot of fun putting together packets and chatting a bit with other queers
I live in my own bubble so much I oft forget there's community here, and they want to support you - part of the community lol
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#queerthings #transthings

An orange cat lays on his back and stares at the camera. Full fluffy belly is on display, as well as his fluffy tail. To the left is his human's thigh leg, tattoos on the lower half slightly visible. The human is wearing just green underwear, and bush can be seen peeking through. The human is also wearing a white tank that has ridden up a bit, and some stomach is also visible. In the background is a messy wooden dresser, against a white wall where one can see some photos and jewelry is hanging.

Come home from work just to lie down next to my favourite guy 😻
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#kitty #peekaboo #alt #tattoo #messyroom #thighs #tattooed #ink #ftm #toebeans #floof #bush

Absolutely gutted I don't live in the UK and won't be able to see this

One of my fave movies of all time 🙂‍↕️🧛‍♂️

“Gagging”

A faceless picture of boobs straight on, brown areolas and pierced nipples. Various tattoos adorn the body as seen, including on the arms, chest, sternum and ribs. The chest is covered in fine dark brown hair, and a tummy trail of hair can be seen as well.

one of the hardest effects of T to fully accept + come to terms w has been the huge increase in body hair -
it's p smtg to do w loss of femininity/passing but
now I'm here and it's p funny looking down and seeing this
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#nsfw #transnsfw #ftm #queer #alt #hairytitties #preop #pierced #tattoos #bewbs

‪📁documents ‬
‪ └📁writing
‪ └📁secret writing two friends know about
‪ └📁writing that exists only in my daydreams
‪ └📁⚠️folder is too large to open‬⚠️

Spider Man and Sauron meme YOU HAVE FULL CONTROL OF THE NARRATIVE! YOU COULD USE IT TO ADVANCE THE PLOT! vs BUT I DON'T WANT TO ADVANCE THE PLOT. I WANT THE CHARACTERS TO FUCK I am on Sauron’s side obvs

A selfie of Nico on a slight angle Person in photo is wearing a grey and white tank top, with a backpack strapped to them. Aviator sunglasses don their face. The person has a septum piercing, a lip piercing on their right side, and many tattoos on their arms. Pink coloured curls brush their forehead, under a black cap.

Feeling decently masc on my way to the beach today
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#transthings #masc #ftm #transguy #beachday #enbythings #altguys #queerpunk

The news of both Vampire Lestat and Hazbin Hotel from SDCC has me completely frothing at the mouth
I am beyond excited and cannot wait

Imprinted markings of a slave ring garter belt left on an upper thigh Can see several peeks of various tattoos along the leg, including a couple of trees, some ivy, and bone fragments

Do we think my thigh ring garter belt was too tight or
😻🤭😏🏳️‍🌈

Just got home from the Mannequin Pussy concert and boy do they know how to put on a show and work the crowd
Fantastic fucking time
Completely lost my voice [literally] screaming
All in all, perf night
#concert #show #livemusic #novoicetomorrow