since yesterday, I have received eight emails with Chicago news and two "thank you for subscribing" emails after clicking unsubscribe twice in two different places. go Chicago Bears.

had some terrible work-related stress today, decided to skip writing because my brain crashed, watched a movie, and am now building a fic around a quote from it that I want Sam to say to Dean. if it works, there will be more Dark Winchesters coming. in five years or so.

subscribed to a newsletter with Chicago news, so I could read an article from 2006 with details about my chosen setting, and now I can't unsubscribe from it. the things you do for your gay incest fic.

Love to the Extreme - Chapter 5 - akwardtractor, Kittens, LunaMinora, need_more_meta - Star Wars Sequel Trilogy [Archive of Our Own] An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

🖤Love to the Extreme🧡

~30k, modern AU #kylux, explicit, fake date, wedding (not kylux), getting together, extremely fast burn

co-written by Kittens, LunaMinora, need_more_meta, and XxPalpatine’sMomxX

Chapter 5

archiveofourown.org/works/816779...

the only marginally coffee shop au thing about it is that someone makes a hot drink in every chapter except for the prologue where the boys kill a dragon. in my defense, I've read like one coffee shop au in my life ten years ago.

I have 1 and 1/4 chapters plus an epilogue left to write in my wincest fantasy coffee shop au and this whole fic is batshit insane. I cannot apologize enough to everyone who clicks on it.

❤️The Sins That Bind💙

~60k, post-s15e19 #wincest, explicit, case fic, getting together, a blend of horror and romcom

Chapter 5/6. What Is or Isn’t Dead

archiveofourown.org/works/816144...

writing scenes with multiple characters is trying desperately to avoid half of them be like cardboard cutouts, but when one of them is Castiel, that’s just a personality trait.

#wincest (obviously, this paragraph is from a sex scene)

Sam is looking at him with a kind of trust that you can only find in family, this all-encompassing, all-sacrificing belief in your absolute goodness, no proof necessary. Dean hopes Sam knows the feeling’s mutual.

god, I'm so happy I found SPN, even if two decades late. I've been looking for a sibling incest ship that would speak to me all my life, and Wincest slammed into my soul and lodged in there like the most perfect car crash. I've lost my mind and I don't want it to be found.

🖤Love to the Extreme🧡

~30k, modern AU #kylux, explicit, fake date, wedding (not kylux), getting together, extremely fast burn

co-written by Kittens, LunaMinora, need_more_meta, and XxPalpatine’sMomxX

Chapter 4

archiveofourown.org/works/816779...

note to self: always, always jot down a comment on why I chose this or that city for my SPN fic location.
staring at my notes and I have no idea why the boys are here. is it the demographics? the climate? the nature? the attractions? the crime rates? why???

well, I came back to discord, which is the closest thing I have to a friend group, and two hours later was slapped in the face with yet another reminder that I'm completely out of sync with everyone there.
I don't belong in this fandom. why I thought I'd fit in here is a mystery.

that sounds both very difficult and very fun!

SO TRUE

choreographing scenes with multiple characters is a very special kind of pain. I just had six people in one room and had to remind myself that there are SIX PEOPLE IN THE ROOM, not just the two who are speaking.

the big God. following a ritual devised before the Tower of Babel. to stop a war between Heaven and Hell. I don't think I understand how Coffee Shop AUs should work.

❤️The Sins That Bind💙

~60k, post-s15e19 #wincest, explicit, case fic, getting together, a blend of horror and romcom

Chapter 4/6. Death Row

archiveofourown.org/works/816144...

all humans, unfortunately
(I mean, one of them is on the path to becoming God, but right now, he's still human. yes, it is still a coffee shop au.)

like, I realized that my fantasy coffee shop didn’t have any lights, especially in the cellar where the characters clearly can see each other, so I had to go and comb 20k words for places where I could insert lighting. this close to just giving everyone flashlight eyes.

you know what's really a pain in the writer’s ass?
counting limbs in sex scenes? tracking blows in fight scenes? pfft.
THE FUCKING LIGHTS.
turn them on. turn them off. figure out where they are. how bright they are. what shadows they cast. fucking hell.

that's how I read it! 🐕

it really is! thank you!

haha, I'm so glad you like it, thank you!! 💛

haha, thank you so much!! 😘🥰💛

I was gifted my first deck this February, and it's a Supernatural deck. never tried other ones, but deeply enjoying the fandom-based readings.

In the same smooth move, he stuffs the ascot between Dean’s legs, letting it soak up his come leaking out of Dean. “Dude!” Dean’s head clears rapidly. “Gross!” Sam gives him a look of pure shock. “You calling me gross? You?” He rubs the ascot all over Dean’s rim. “You’ve been shooting into my towels since you learned how to jack off.” Well, that’s true. But Sam’s towels were just there, all soft and innocent. “Fresh jizz is good for your hair,” Dean argues, trying not to let on that the ascot’s soft fabric actually feels nice against his thoroughly fucked ass. Sam stares at him with almost serious eyes. “No, Dean, it’s not.” “Says who?” “Literally everyone.” Dean makes a pfft noise. Sam lets the soiled ascot fall to the floor. It’s fine; Dean will just run it through several laundry cycles. Possibly with Sam’s socks.

this week’s #WeeklyWritingWinner comes from a Scoobynatural coda where Sam finds a use for Dean’s ascot after they fuck in the Dean Cave.
(my friend called this snippet “true sibling behavior”)

A four-card tarot spread: Nine of Blades (illustrated with Alastair), Seven of Bones reversed, Ace of Bones reversed, Three of Blades reversed (illustrated with Madison).

this week's draw offers Alastair as the worry to let go of and reversed Madison as an idea for the next step, which probably means I should stop torturing myself and avoid killing myself for the benefit of other people.
guess I'm downloading discord back and seeing how it goes.

finished my little light-hearted brothers-with-benefits treat and it was so much fun, I can't wait to share it *checks posting schedule* in June.
(my posting schedule is, so far, chock-full till mid-August. this is a threat.)