Asked two older ladies in a craft group I'm a member of if they'd not discuss weight (theirs, mine, anyone else's) because my eating disorder is rearing it's ugly head and it went so well I'm gonna start asking everyone to not mention it (joke) #CunTherapy

Number of times I've said "Universal basic income would eradicate probably 75% of my issues" to my therapist: 6 #CunTherapy

Tw: suicidal ideation
Therapist: You're still selecting that you feel suicidal at least a few days a week
Me: Well... *gestures vaguely at everything* #CunTherapy

Work with my current therapist isn't even addressing my trauma, on account of it taking me outside of my "window of tolerance" which is therapist code for "going off the fucking deep end" #CunTherapy

Three different mental health professionals have said to me "You have all the signs of PTSD, but I'm not able to add it as a diagnosis for you" and like that's just grand, ta #CunTherapy

Wavy brown hair and a snippet of white skin and a dark blue dress

Okay, this bit is better. I keep swishing my head. And my headache is gone #CunTherapy

My therapist suggested that I go to the salon to get my hair washed and blow dried when I didn't have the capacity to do it myself and I'm about to leave and honestly this isn't easier, per se... #CunTherapy

I am actually feeling vaguely positive about the whole thing at the moment, but that's not funny (not that any of the rest of my observations so far have been) #CunTherapy

Plus the phrase "become your own therapist" was mentioned again and like no, that's why I come to you #CunTherapy

Totally did my #CunTherapy homework about half an hour before the session and Sharon was well impressed but also now she wants me to do more of it

As usual, I have just woken up from a nightmare, right before #CunTherapy and now I have a headache

Go to bed, Martha #CunTherapy

I'm just saying, you know those questionnaires you fill out with the 1-5 rating scales that give you scores for depression and anxiety? I think my numbers will be up on last week. #CunTherapy

#CunTherapy tomorrow and have I treated myself to an early night and good sleep hygiene for it? No. And have I done my homework? Also no. And did I not do either of these things because I feel much better and am gonna tell Sharon to call it quits? 😶😶😶

But Martha, you essentially ran a business for a pair of superiors who only ever showed up when they needed money to buy something personal, or if they needed to blame you for something you hadn't done... Yep. #CunTherapy

Soz but like #CunTherapy looking a lot less funny now I've gotten there...

When you have to think about your positive qualities but you spent the best part of 6 years being gaslit about every single one of them to the point where you're unsure you ever applied these positive words to yourself in a truthful manner #CunTherapy #WhatTheTrauma

Foreign governmental websites, coming over here, giving our citizens better mental health care than our free at the point of use health service... Doesn't flow so much #GoBackToWhereYouCameFrom #AndBringBackATherapist #CunTherapy

We are mostly working from freely available mental health workbooks on the internet from a foreign government, so at the end of my 8 sessions it's entirely possible that I will #CunTherapy

In true former gifted kid now mentally ill adult style, I did SO MUCH therapy homework this week that by the time we'd finished discussing the homework, we were three quarters of the session down #CunTherapy

Therapist: Martha, have you ever thought of being your own therapist?
Me: *looks to camera*

NHS CBT in action right there #CunTherapy

Recording and challenging my biased expectations MAY in fact result in less anxiety, but mostly because I'll be too busy doing all the admin to have the bleeding panic attack! #CunTherapy

Okay so talking about trauma takes me outside of my "window of tolerance" which I think is because she hasn't yet figured out that I joke about it all CONSTANTLY #CunTherapy

Yes, Sharon, I know that I'm worthy of love just as I am but what I KNOW and what I BELIEVE are so often not the same thing #CunTherapy

My negative core beliefs are funnier than your negative core beliefs #CunTherapy

Never getting over that "night before therapy" nerves, honestly worse than "first day of school" nerves... #CunTherapy

They're going to tell me to stop taking naps during the day, I just know it #CunTherapy

I start some new therapy soon, and I don't seem to be able to do anything without a community, so #CunTherapy is my new hashtag and we'll see how it goes