do u wanna text ur ex again? Such an important relationship. Impossible to separate the experiences, joys, n progress of my early transition from S. Ze shared so much of it with me! N helped me w so much. I sure do miss my lil bun-bun. If ze knocked on my door now, we'd share love, n wake up together. Barring that... the space apart has been good for my head, after the initial pain. Things in our lil heartbreak trio became so tangled, such a mess. I became a mess. Yes, I miss our happinesses. But I do not miss the instability. It crept into my mental health. I do not want that back. NI do not know if they must go together. Is link in bio لتناا tellonym @nineveh.aka.nini

🌊 #AskNini🎙️https://tellonym.me/nineveh.aka.nini 💌 #Q&A #Questions #TransWoman #LGBTQ #Insight #Opinion #Wisdom #Curiosity #Love #Nostalgia #MentalHealth #SianTheSun #Love

Our favorite Shawarma plate !
#Food #Mediterranean #LGBTQ #SianTheSun #TransWoman

Pretty trans woman, smiling, intricate, make up glittery, long, dark hair, tattoos, one in progress, snake head on the back of your hand, and lots of jewelry

Ah...a twinge of sadness remembering S. Always attentive to my style. She told me I was like what…a walking art piece or something—so much to look at ppl had to take their time. O, early days, querida. Look at me now.... #NiniStyle #VintageNini #Style #Beauty #TransWoman #SianTheSun #Memories

The sweetest fried chicken I ever ate in my life.

"What is life about?" asked the fox. The privilege of geting to love," replied the moon, den "and being Loved in return... in the end that's all that matters.*

It's a little princess girl with a big puffy dress sitting by flowers and a huge bay window out at a dark city and a massive moon, she is alone, bathed in moonlight and very pensive 

Sat camera roll. Last night me n #SianTheSun shared. Ze bought fried chicken after I wailed I was out of meat n losing my boobs. 😆🍗❤️‍🔥 Other 2 images I saved while up verrry late finishing work past deadline, sitting at my desk next to zer as ze lay sleeping in bed. At dawn I joined zer as big spoon.

I embrace zer non-binary nature. TBH it took a long time for me to integrate it. I couldn't get meaning from the term, the abstract idea. Knowing zer helped make it real. We grappled w gender stuff a lot, even when we didn't call it that. It wasn't always painful. Sometimes joyous! #SianTheSun

Well, got the word from #SianTheSun finally. Ze waited 3 days, I dangled, ze finally got in touch: n let me know we r done.

So, I'm gonna go sit out front w my pipe n my glass of wine, n let that soak in for a little bit. Tonight is for memories. Probably a few more tears.

Tomorrow, the new path.

the sun is shining through the trees and a fern is growing out of the ground Alt: the sun is shining through the trees and a fern is growing out of the ground

Rare one has run. Hurt, n frightened.

Will u come back to the edge of the clearing? Will you ever return?

I am still waiting here.

I will be waiting here

#SianTheSun

Sian Today Greeeeen 2m You're like an alien bounty hunter 1m Thank you? 1m On a mission to seek and destroy testosterone 1m

zer affection comes w new insights 🤣

#TransWoman #Signal #LGBTQ #Queer #Testosterone #Spironolactone #HRT #Dating #Photography #Trans #Lol #SianTheSun

Myself, Sian, n Akiko, last night, making our way from a wintry rewatch of Game of Thrones into the warm depths of slumber...

💔 Sian leaves for Tejas today. Maybe she will return Sunday, maybe it will take a little longer. I will brace myself! 😢😌😘👋🏽 #NiniJourney #SianTheSun #LGBTQ

Nineveh de la Luz in her bathroom mirror

🍿🥤🍫🎬 AHEM *somebody* is getting picked up n taken out to a sofa theater for some dedicated time, snuggling n challenging the superman to impress us ... 🥰😍 #SianTheSun #LGBTQ #Trans #TransWoman #Dating #Superman #Queer #Film #YearOfTheSnake #NiniStyle

Ze was real cute with long hair too. I liked when ze cut it short. Ze is very firmly genderqueer, n a switch n would refuse to land on one side or the other, but I always perceived her a little bit more as masculine. There was something about her sense of control n dominance n directness n linear thinking, n the set of her eyes that could strongly communicate masculine energy as I see it. And I thought she was beautiful for what she was and is. I still do.

back when zer hair was long. This was March 2025. I'd never had a girlfriend as a woman before, never been in a lesbian relationship. The care n intimacy n communication n level of intensity was off the charts in comparison to my het relationships. #TransWoman #Love #SianTheSun #Queer #LGBTQ 

Sian's boot, my shoes, a soda can, my purse, at the burlesque show

burlesque... what a wild time... as a glam, hyper-stylized, expressive, trans woman I felt so at home 💜💖💙 one of our dates, another amazing moment ze brought into my life #SianTheSun #LGBTQ #Dating #Memories

I have to let zer walk away. Bcz ze's been leaving me for six months. The whole time we've been together. She breaks up with me over n over n over. N I always try n do melt the ice between us.

But I have to let zer have what ze wants this time. It seems to really be what ze wants. #SianTheSun #Love

Ze was always trying to get me to go braless. ☺️ I usually like wearing one. Ze wanted my bra off n my wig off so ze could run zer hands through my hair n feel my body. 🥰 I would argue for keeping one or both on n ze would be baffled... #SianTheSun #Love #Relationship #Memories #Lesbian #TransWoman

well, inna spirit of being broken up with—tho I'm WELL aware of my ultra baddie status w no prob getting a gf anytime if it's what I want—I'ma walk to the bodega for the ritualistic bottle of vino, n pay my beautiful, dead, 6-month romance some respect. It sure was amazing. #LGBTQ #Love #SianTheSun

KNOW HOW LONG it took me to start using my #wig w efficiency, dexterity, n proper technique? A long time. Months. I remember the night I was performing w #SianTheSun @ this dinner theater Renfaire type thing, carrying a sword n she tipped me off that a strap was hanging out of my wig 😆🤣😭 #TransWoman

when u dated someone, did ur family like them? why or why not? my family loved Sian. still does. she is kind, warm, generous...n they saw her making me happy, making positive changes in my life

🏳️‍⚧️ I BRING HOME GEMS 💃🏽 #AskNini🎙️https://tellonym.me/nineveh.aka.nini 💌 #Questions #Q&A #Dating #TransWoman #Family #SianTheSun #Transgender #Blue #Style #NiniStyle

Dunno how I got from there to telling her about me n #SianTheSun breaking up. I hadn't told my therapist yet. Maybe it was the kindness. maybe the gender fluidity. Or the space...or all of it. It suddenly felt no diff than the #trans bbq or other #queer events.

There's an energy there, an oasis.

Channeling the deep disappointment, hurt, sorrow, anger, despair, of losing a relationship that nourished me deeply

"MOURN #3" - Nineveh de la Luz
#Photography #LGBTQ #TransModel #TransWoman #Rage #Sorrow #Love #Loss #YearOfTheSnake #Grief
#Viper #SianTheSun #Tattoo

I share pain n joy n memory this is how I heal n stay healthy n move thru feelings. I'm always also aware of the flaws n drawbacks. I do not over-romanticize. But I do not paint fallen love w villainy nor blame. Everyone I love n have loved has been n IS gold in the purse of my life 🌟💛🌟 #SianTheSun

gooda night too filled with our memories The dark beach on the coast of Oregon

ze was so good at dreaming up ways to play, I can never forget the night ze made me run to the beach holding hands like a corny movie n so i did

n in the neardark moonlight she whispers 'yr eyes r glittering, yr smile is glowing' n froze the beauty of the moment in my heart forever

😭

#SianTheSun

On this night, we ran down to the water in the dark, under the light of the moon, laughing together

we loved being together so much
n so we made countless memories
n now one by one
they all rain down on me

our joy made us dream
dream of a future together
n those dreams have fast collapsed
under my feet
n so i
fall

#Grief #Loss #Love #Queer #Love #LGBTQ #Memories #Hurt #Mourn #SianTheSun

One thing I really loved about zer mind was, ze would never accept a challenge as insurmountable. She would always find a way to integrate a 'problem' into our flow. She would always find a way to accommodate a person's need. Brilliant loving mind. #SianTheSun #LGBTQ #Love #QueerLove #TransLove

This was zer, tambièn. 💜 #SianTheSun

Early days w Zer

Gonna be sad for a bit… Me n #SianTheSun broke up, this time fr (?) Been ... 5 mos? My 1st love, after coming out. 1st queer gf. Ze was so much 2 me. We dreamed of having it all 😟

It will be v hard to peel away the early joys of this path from the early joys w her. It is so interwoven. 😢 #translove

I'm not sure there's a comment that sticks in my head more than #SianTheSun 's words/theme on unprotecting myself so others can approach/ #embrace me

they turn over n over

connected 2 ideas of #masculinity n #femininity

connected 2 the #trauma journey

This is, indeed, #Transition

N we roll on.

I can gauge the rate of my body's development by the level of excitement my gf shows every time I see her 🤣 while she loves all of me, she currently can't keep away from my 🍑☺️

#TransWoman #Transition #GAHT #HRT #SianTheSun #Ass #Body

Me, Sian's child (a fantastic kiddo), n Sian. It was a middle school graduation event, so it was a good vibe, everyone was in good spirits, and afterward we went to Red Robin and I got my usual, the SCORPION 🦂 burger !!!

I would have posed a little wilder, if I realized Sian was! Instead, I gave a semi beauty-queen wave in my corduroy jester hat ... missed opportunity! 😆 #Costume #Fun #Celebration #Posing #SianTheSun #TransWoman #NiniStyle #NiniJourney #Lesbian #Trans #Transbian #LGBTQ #Happy #Laughter #PhotoBooth

🍑 Clearly, my thighs hips n butt are having a turn at growth bcz I'm getting more n more positive feedback from the gf lately. Slapping my butt n grabbing it on the bounce. Testing the heft of my thighs… She's happy. 😆 #GAHT #HRT #TransWoman #Body #SianTheSun #Queer #Lesbian #Transbian #LGBTQ #Lol

Shit. Amateur stuff. I had a coffee maker on your counter within a week and a half. На! ... Wait... you did not within a week and a half...!! Did you???? 6m Farmers market 6m Sian Ha! ... Wait... you did not within a week and a half.!! Did you???? I would have to investigate to nail it down, but if not, it wasn't far off, darling 5m Sian На! ... Wait... you did not within a week and a half.!! Did you???? Were you *that* successful at uhaul lesbianing me? I do remember it was a short time after you first stayed the night 'because it was safer' 5m I was that successful. I still am! 5m farmers market 4m I was born to do this Why do you keep saying farmers marks It's getting ominous. 4m

Farmer's Market. 😆
#LGBTQ #Queer #TransLove #Love #TransWoman #LesbianLife #Transbian #Lol #Coffee #SianTheSun #Couple