( ID: I go to bed. I am consumed by overwhelming loneliness. I stare at the ceiling. I long for something I can't name. I question if I'm real. I see a funny little meme on my phone and laugh hysterically for several minutes. I get to invested in an unrealistic fantasy. I pass out around three. )
Since his passing, I'm just...empty.
#bpd #grief #loss #twdeath #fuckcancer