"How exactly does this end, Natalie?" James Thomas #TheExes 📚
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"Nope. Sorry, I'm not blindly following your instructions anymore. Not now I know you're just as I sane as I am." Natalie #TheExes
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"Something's different about this session, though. Dimple's like a hound that's lost the scent. Her heart isn't in it." #TheExes
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"I go into Cool Girl overdrive, raised eyebrows and unimpressed smirks that carry enough humor to suggest that beneath it all, maybe I do want to fuck them." #TheExes 📚
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"This was and wasn't new. I was used to mother sometimes hiding in herself when Dad's screams were in her ears and his hands were on her body. That vacant look in her eyes always told me she'd gone away." #TheExes
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"I slowly learned that this disappearance was pain relief; she let someone else take the blows while she went elsewhere. Eventually, I would learn to do that, too." #TheExes
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"I've made a point not letting myself get too loose for several years. There have been too many dark nights followed by fatalities in the mornings. Too many blank spots in my memory clouded over by nice tequila and narcotics." #TheExes 📚
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"The feeling is so ugly it frightens me. I do my best to wrap it tightly in impenetrable denial and pack it away somewhere in the recesses of my mind." #TheExes
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"I stare into the mirror and think about what to do next. Mr. Periphery has surprised me. Perhaps this night hasn't been wasted after all." #TheExes
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"Bit cluttered on this table - you want to nip into of of those booths?" Mr. Periphery #TheExes
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"The beliefs I've held of him in my mind are milk teeth coming loose. Almost in real time, I can feel them dislodging: bloody, painful, dripping one by one." #TheExes
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"I have two hours to swallow my heartbreak. Because this is what it is - I gave loved James, do still love him in a sense, but I have to accept that the version of him that I love doesn't exist." #TheExes
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"I find my way back to Old Natalie, stepping out of myself to protect myself from the bad feelings. There are too many, and it's easier to live as a passenger in myself. Numb, not feeling at all." #TheExes
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"This is all quite a lot, you know. And how are you feeling about all of this?" Dimple #TheExes
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"I can't do this with you, James. This insecurity is so -- You can't start spiraling every time I'm friendly with a guy. What are you going to do when we're miles apart at uni?" Chioma #TheExes
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"Im sorry and glad that you're having to unpuzzle this shit with me. But how did I get here?" Natalie Thomas #TheExes 📚
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"One dead ex is a tragedy. Two is too much of a coincidence. I should know." #TheExes
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"He must know I know something, and if I don't act soon, I fear I will become another dead mark on James's romantic scoreboard." #TheExes 📚
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"I've been trying to figure out how to tell you. What to tell you." Dimple #TheExes
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"Your answers seem guarded today. Why might that be?* Dimple #TheExes
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"A few days stolen together here or there felt special." #TheExes
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"I hadn't known how good it could feel to be admired. Hadn't known how a few superficial things could make me worthy in the eyes of someone as smart, as funny, as genuinely cool, as she was. I wanted it to stay this way forever." #TheExes 📚
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"People seem to think I've attained some guru level of inner peace, but the truth is that I simply don't care enough about work problems to go into a panic about them." #TheExes
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"Every time you ask me to revisit something I don't want to, I end up feeling worse." Natalie #TheExes
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"I don't want to be our mother, but I can't escape the fact that I seem to keep dating variations of our father. Callous, selfish men who know how to turn in the charm when it suits them." #TheExes
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"What I can do is keep my facilities about me. I'm terrified of what I'll do if I don't." #TheExes
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"Being an object of desire for a boy like Marc Baxter comes with social currency, social currency I wasn't born with, and social currency I've worked for. I can feel my balance depleting." #TheExes
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"The baffling thing about pretending is how easy it is. That's the scary thing about it, too. I'm so comfortable playing pretend...Still, I want to enjoy this - us - for as long as possible before it might be lost to me forever." #TheExes
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"My little monster is roaring - furious, white-hot anger. And it's not so little now. It wants to clamp its jaws around this sick creep and feed...The thought feels alarmingly right and wrong at the same time." #TheExes
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"The night has been disrobed of its facade of fun and is shrugging on something unseemly in its place." #TheExes
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