Page in a notebook. Black and white page from a magazine was torn in pieces, glued down, then some of the papers were ripped back out, leaving large bits behind on the notebook page. On top of that, in the center are words cut out from different books, arranged to say: These were shards of / death / bitter on my tongue. / hard / years / heavy head. / I coped with matters/ yet so much was missing
Page from a notebook with words written in cursive in black ink. The words cover the page, cross over each other, and are mostly illegible. Near the bottom are the words "Tell the truth we were more than this I know it" which is the emotional tone of all the other words.
Notebook page with the words "schizo" in red ink sprinkled around. The lettering varies each time. In the center of the page is a Post-It note which has been typed on using a typewriter. The note reads: "I think I am not human and I can't handle this experience of trying to be so part of me leaves when it needs to. Why do I have to be so different? What am I supposed to do with that?"
The text contains some errors, mistypes that were "crossed out" by going back and typing Xs over them.
Surrounding the Post - It is a journal entry in black ink. It begins: "Update: they were wrong about me all along" the entry is written in cursive, and parts are illegible. The journal entry is a lament about being misdiagnosed with a psychotic disorder, when the symptoms were in fact trauma responses (i.e. blunted affect, dissociation).
Scans of old notebook pages.
1. A found poem
2. A vent
3. The grief of having a trauma response misdiagnosed.
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