I asked the Lord to order my steps… and almost immediately heard from my surgeon. He just reminded me that if reversing the stoma does not work, it will not be possible to make it continent. He told me this when I met him back in September but I guess I thought the solution that the other doctor at OSU presented to make it continent would work if we tried the reversal and it didn’t work, but it will only work if I don’t reverse the stoma. So basically if the reversal doesn’t work, the only other option is a leaky stoma for the rest of my life. That’s not terrifying at all 🙃

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Gotta love a cath change appointment that reminds me EXACTLY why I’m pursuing getting my stoma reversed or at the very least making it continent 🥴 #prayforme #bladdersurgery #medicaltrauma #worshipisalifestyle #chronicallyillChristian #neurogenicbladder #prayerrequest #surgicaltrauma #faithinChrist

I spoke with my female urologist in Columbus today. She’s very sweet but it would appear that the plan has slightly changed. Again. She says there IS a non surgical way to make my stoma continent (YAY) and she’s going to bring it up to my other doctor at OSU. She said there is a chance that the stoma reversal won’t work and I’ll still have a stoma for the rest of my natural life (basically confirming what my PTSD has already been saying) but I told her if I don’t at least try to get rid of it, the “what if” of not trying would haunt me forever. She once again asked me if I’d be at all willing to consider the solution she proposed last year and I said NO. But now that there’s a way to make my stoma continent… if the reversal doesn’t work, that’s probably my next best option.

Although it sounds like something that will have to be repeated to keep the stoma continent, and either way, it sounds like once I start cathing again, being able to sleep through the night without getting up to cath will no longer be an option…. And I get VERY cranky when I’m sleep deprived. This whole thing is both very promising and VERY scary. Not knowing how this is gonna work out in the end terrifies me. Jesus is all I have to hold on to that I’ll be okay in the end. Thank you for your continued prayers. I love you all so much.

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