A lovingly rendered painting of my character Ezrael sinking into a sea/galaxy qith massive black jaws threatening to swallow her. Hand painted bubbles float around her form and she has an expression of pain on her face. The jaws belong to her past life-self, also named Ezrael—a massive mistavian dragon who embraced her darker qualities, relishing in the chaos and carnage she caused while the modern day specimen does what's necessary but it's always at a price to herself. This is the latest in a long, LONG series of paintings with this theme I come back to repeatedly. Like my 2020 version, this one is meant to be accompanied by the song 'Diving Bell' by Starset. A song which, like the art, is about someone who wants help being pulled out of the darkness, yet is at home with their pain and finds a melancholic contentment in the misery, a sort of equilibrium between despair and hope. Never progressing, just constantly being pulled one way or the other. In the contect of my universes' lore, Ezrael is the savior of her entire planet. No one would be alive today if not for her, yet she is deeply ashamed in herself for not saving even more when she had the chance, and instead of relishing in the small victories, she despairs at the catastrophic losses, seeing her entire life as a failure because in her own eyes, nothing short of saving billions of lives would matter. She's a post-war survivor with extreme ptsd and internalizes this pain, choosing only to lash outward in extreme circumstances. Most of her anger is in fact, reflected inward which is in extreme conflict to her past self who once again, enjoyed causing suffering and carnage.
Sorry there's no place for you
Inside the solitude
Just stay up here until I'm back again
I swear I'll be there for you
I swear I'll follow through
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