i just wish that were enough for them to have empathy or the grace to care now, while i'm still here. it might not be today. but i've dealt with this since i was a toddler. banging my head on walls or crying and trying to hurt myself bc my feelings were too much. i fear it'll take me one day.

i just truly wonder… if i were to give up… would anyone understand why? would i have been too weak? would it be my fault that i couldn't handle the pain of being alive? or would others take responsibility for their role in my downfall?

i am every ones keeper. i'm supposed to harbor the kindness and patience for everyone and their issues. i show pain and exhaustion and the lack of empathy because of the weight of my own emotions and i am unbelievable and irrational and it's too much for others. i am always without a keeper.

I am tired of this shit. the randomly placed hatred in this country is exhausting. I genuinely don't understand.

oh no i’m so sorry love 😞😞 but im glad it’s helping with something at least.

it’s almost like we told them it would be a failure… as it was the last time he was in office… ugh 😞

my fiance was like this when we first met. tell him it makes u feel shamed and guilty. if he doesn’t understand then, my love, u make him an ex boyfriend asap. u don’t deserve to feel that shame and guilt for the rest of your life if he can’t get over it.

how did that go? drinking is my hardest habit to quit. i love it. it’s awful really.

thank God lol can’t handle the bad news on repeat 7 days a week lol thanks for your work!

i love coffee man. i feel high lol the jitters are the best.

no same lol ugh i hate pcos.

im not even hispanic but i love hispanic food so much. all my safe foods are hispanic foods 💕 i have a hard time saying no to it tbh

Alright, I’m saying this as a Canadian who is absolutely sick to death of watching the world hold its breath every time this blabbering blubbering blithering blustering baffoon opens his grotesque mouth.

You see folks, as far as I can tell, from the outside, this is what it looks like:
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looks like this ⭐️⭐️

this is the one i like most! i often subscribe to apps on the app store and this one was a great price for all the features.

omg this looks like pure joy 🥹

started talking to my chinese friends from rednote more often and honestly it’s a huge source of joy in my day. they are truly so kind and caring.

the fact that democracy is ending AND i still have to go to work is so trifling. like i wanna help but i need to feed myself and house myself. idk what to do atp.

🪐life update. / 🚑 new diagnoses ugh endometriosis stage 4, hypermobility spectrum disorder, and gastroparesis. im in physical therapy so im told it gets better. / 💍 i also got engaged to my lover of almost 8 years! im obsessed with my ring and ooooo i just love weddings!

how are yall?

Others have it worse, so if they find nothing... has my anxiety officially driven me insane?

All my life I have had so many good days where nothing hurts. So when my doctor says its probably this awful disease, I worry that all of the bad days of being painfully bloated, or changing my pad every hour, or struggling to use the bathroom without passing out is just me being dramatic.

Today I scheduled my exploratory laparoscopy for endometriosis.

got diagnosed with pcos. fml man.

got my pelvic ultrasound notes back..

"Bilateral ovaries with multiple small peripheral follicles, findings commonly seen in PCOS."

"Simple appearing cystic structure in the cul-de-sac, similar to prior MRI."

great, so now i have to worry about #PCOS.

I have suspected IBS and endometriosis, and just got diagnosed with interstitial cystitis and pelvic floor dysfunction. Anyone else dealing with this? How have you managed? What helps you? Genuinely so tired of being in pain.

#interstitialcystitis #ibs #endometriosis #chronicillness

I want so badly to keep up with social media and make friends but my mood dictates just about everything I do and often I’m drained and checked out. ugh.

can't bring myself to eat at work. can barely eat dinner. I visited my mom last month and she was worried bc I barely ate. skipping meals for weeks, and now I don't feel hungry anymore. idek why I skipped them. busy at work, woke up late... now the empty feeling is back and it feels so nice. fuck.

my honest thoughts on #charliekirk as a neurodivergent, disabled, queer, afab, black person. shoutout #dbt therapy.

I've been drinking more water and what do ya know, it really does help. 😪😅🫠