“I hope,” she said slowly, “that you are loved exactly the way you always wanted to be loved.” Because I love you, so so much, she thought but didn’t say. And I always will. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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She floated, adrift in a swirl of thoughts. She thought back to the war paradigm of the old days. Things are better now, she thought fiercely as tears welled in her eyes. Things are better, even though I’m so fucking broken. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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That tightness returned at the back of her throat, choking her with the thick, hard feeling of displacement, of being in the wrong place with the wrong person. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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Maybe she was like that, too, a relic from another time, unable to exist in the framework of the new. Stubborn, useless, unwanted. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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I am all the things I don’t know. Everything is unfolding as it should, and that doesn’t mean I can’t be mad about it. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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She wanted to learn how to speak again, perhaps in another language, in a land far away from the wounds of her past. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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Love as a verb, an action, an adventure in knowing. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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We don’t make things that can stand on their own anymore. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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I can finally, safely say that I have no idea what’s coming! I don’t know if this is the end of life as we know it, or the beginning of a grand adventure, or perhaps both. All I have is my uncertainty. And really, that’s all I’ve ever had. Everything else was a lie. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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"Lately,” she said, “I’ve felt as if I’ve been living in the wrong timeline. I’ve become numb, like I’m watching my own life as a movie, that is, when I’m not filled with rage or tremendous grief or crippling depression.” #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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What was more mutable than her own perceptions? #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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How have we never met before? they asked again and again, but what they were really saying was, How have I only just begun to love you? #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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Be present. Eventually, the conversation will flow to other things—typically, to The Past and How Great It Was, Even Though We Didn’t Know It at the Time, and The Future, that shimmering, mercurial beast, constantly breaking our hearts. #TheSeep #ChanaPorter
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