I tried telling my professor that my father forgot my birthday again. She asked, not in a mean way but a genuine curiosity way, “isn’t that normal with men?” I was too emotional to explain that my entire life my father and his side in Germany would only recognize my existence on my birthday, which I shared with my paternal grandfather. And after he died they stopped wishing me happy birthday… So yeah. The height of the mud depends on the size of the dog.

#BPDAquariusMusings
#healingjourney
#livingwithbpd

Inspired by A Skillful Story’s post

Part of my healing with BPD journey has come to include the #radicalacceptance that most people I interact with don’t understand the depths of my pain, even with the best of intentions.

For instance;

Recorded Sunday night, didn’t realize it would be her last night #petgrief #livingwithbpd #managingemotions #healing #grief #onedayatatime

Pt. 3/3 Abandonment wound triggered, BPDemon in full swing #bpd #livingwithbpd #abandonmentissues

Pt. 2/3 Abandonment wound triggered, BPDemon in full swing #bpd #livingwithbpd #abandonmentissues

Pt. 1/3 Abandonment wound triggered, BPDemon in full swing #bpd #livingwithbpd #abandonmentissues

One day at a time #seniorcat #geriatriccat #CatsOfBluesky #livingwithbpd

I genuinely don’t think there’s any better feeling than sitting outside in the sun with a hot coffee listening to the birds, in the silence after the school run.

Best mental health treatment I’ve found so far🫶🏼

#livingwithBPD #livingwithmentalhealth #doingmybest

Managing the #BPDemon when a stressful situation presents itself, today it’s having to take Pikachu to the vet #bpd #bpdawareness #livingwithbpd #mindfulness #breathe #healing #healingjourney

Oh....that explains sooooo fucking much.

#BPDThings #LivingWithBPD

I can't post about my self care despite doing it the past two days because I want to talk about how horrible my BPD and anxiety is over the past 4 days. My meds aren't helping, neither is DBT. Did some self care and I just keep having rolling panic attacks. This sucks. #livingwithbpd #bpd #anxiety

#BPDAquariusMusings
#livingwithbpd
#managingbpd
#managingdepression

#BPDAquariusMusings
#livingwithbpd

I am so tired of carrying open emotional wounds from my life…

Childhood and more recent…

Having to change the bandages (self-soothe and regroup) every time they bleed (I cry) is a whole job in of itself…

Rough day...

The suicidal ideation really be ideating today...

#bpd
#bordelinepersonalitydisorder
#livingwithbpd

I took my meds today...

I'm so fucking sporadic about it...

Executive dysfunction hits in the stupidest fucking ways sometimes...

#livingwithbpd
#borderlinepersonalitydisorder

Become scared of failing at new thing...

Pack new thing back into box and place on shelf to never revisit again...

3/3

#BPDhobbies
#livingwithBPD
#borderlinepersonalitydisorder

Buy absolutely everything you could ever need to do new thing at a semi professional level...

Get new thing home and realize the actual depth and breadth of said new thing...

2/3

#BPDhobbies
#livingwithBPD
#borderlinepersonalitydisorder

BPD vs. Hobbies

Oh look a new thing to try...

Research new thing...

New thing is very exciting...

Make big plans to do new thing...

1/3

#BPDhobbies
#livingwithBPD
#borderlinepersonalitydisorder

Living with #BPD is like being strapped into a wooden rollercoaster that's on fire.

Sometimes the ride is fun... Sometimes the ride is scary...
Sometimes the pretty lights make you forget you're burning to death...

#borderlinepersonalitydisorder
#livingwithbpd
#bpdawareness