Hes the embodiment fully of my life's worth of trauma, pain, misunderstanding, abandonments, pure rage, self isolation, trust issues, and more
He sees everyone as a threat and I dont like him out
In my teens I was engulfed by him
Hes who I based beginning negative off of in #metanonia in zero btw
Adult teacher deku from bnha murmuring, thinking
Thru my experiments of the methods I did between #metanonia n #SM_passionfruit, I originally hypothesized that id be faster n enjoy the full digital / no planning methods of PF but honestly ?!! I feel i drastically lost speed compared to the planned storyboarding / half trad half digital of M hmm !!
Lowkey I miss working on #metanonia and during my hiatus on it (after the incident™) — I’ve started rewritin the bits that were ripped out and I hope I can do a good job fer this passion project of mine ! It’s my baby
I’m thinkin handcam cowork manga stream 4 trad art bits would be sick, tonight !
Okey I think it’s time to revv back up my mangaka machine - I wanna get the next chapters of #SM_PASSIONFRUIT and #METANONIA out so yall can enjoy them if they yo thang ehe
In my kinda 2 month on n off hiatus, I did finally rethink alot of the outside plot of metanonia. After the incident LOL
I had many years of guilt too because of how much I (trigger warning) Overdosed alot as a teenager when I wanted to die a big chunk of my life
When I remember these feelings I remember why zero from #metanonia means alot to me even if his story ain’t out yet for yall cuz I felt like a experiment
Chat is it bad that I’m more excited rn for #SM_passionfruit than #metanonia? I think it’s cuz if you remember the last bad stuff externally that happened w/ metanonia (in relation to my ex wife / ex partner makin it)
Originally I was fired up to charge thru cus I REALLY love that project but also
Debatin on whether I’m gunna make #SM_passionfruit half color or all color manga
I wanna try sum diff to what I am for #metanonia , to not only challenge n hone multiple skills at once but also keep it fresh for me n i wont get fatigued of one style of render
PS will be full digital methinks tho
Also I’m thinkin maybe for #SM_passionfruit maybeee I should like do full digital ? So I don’t get trad art fatigue since I’m doing a majority of #metanonia in half trad then digital, ya dig? #SM_manga
Cus I can feel if I do both in the same method I’ll get fatigued w the method so I think balance
Workin on page 10/26 !!
#metanonia
Makin decent progress, I wanna lock in even more !! 🔥
Current story vibe:
My sisters pulling me into wanting to play cyberpunk 2077 omfg n it’s perfect inspo for #metanonia
My sister a real 1 cus I hate playin shooter type games (for multiple reasons, I wish I could tho)
So she’s gunna be my on the field guy gettin me #metanonia inspo w vid n pic shots from cyberpunk 2077 (she LOVES that game) I made metanonias first draft b4 that game came out but it’s great inspo !!
Fightin demons to work on #SM_passionfruit already, gotta finish #metanonia new chapter FIRST (I’m enjoying both)
Messy ink work on metanonia manga Panel of zero
Like how this part looks !
Still experimenting w diff ink stroke styles fer inkin phase
#metanonia #SM_manga #SM_art #manga #art
🌟My #SM_index for bio!!🌟
🌈My projects:
#Metanonia
#Neurosis
#SM_passionfruit ☆
#rootofmyvoice
#SM_sonder ☆
#SM_manga ☆ (4 all my manga)
#SM_games ☆ (^)
#Limerence
🌈My art:
#SM_art
🌈Sona stuff:
#theuniversesstar
#SM_fanart ☆ (if u ever make art of me!)
🌈Personal:
#starlightmorningstar
✨️NEW = ☆
Gunna tweak my manga goals for this month and aim to finish #metanonia chapter 2, as well as start #SM_passionfruit (new tag alert)
Pic WIP of my unfinished page in manga currently The doctor and boss doin usual experiment shit with zero I mean what
Ill finish this page after sum sleep =w=
#metanonia #manga #wip
Working on page 7/26 :3c
#metanonia
Current story vibe:
IM OFFICIALLY BACK ON THE #METANONIA CHAPTER GRIND AGAIN WOOO!!
took a surprise mini hiatus omg im becomin a mangaka fr LOL as sum yall know this my 1st month i planned to OFFFICIALLY try my best towards the manga monthly comp! Even if I keep losin, I WILL bring home that gold eventually ehee ☆
Fans of #metanonia later are gunna be like “man I can’t wait for the next chapter ! I can follow the creator for updat-“ and see shit like this LOL
I SWEAR WHEN IM LOCKED I GO CRAZY BUT IM SO COZY LATELY FINALLY BAHAH
GOALS FOR DECEMBER:
- friend commission
- TWO chapters of #metanonia
- Festive sona art (maybe tween)
- friends art gift if I don’t die
- tarot for 2026 year readings stream + new years stream maybes
I can’t wait to finally draw the yaoi in #metanonia
I mean-
AND WITH THE NEW MONTH STARTING — I SHALL RISE FROM THE DEAD, FROM MY BREAK, ANEW AGAIN! AND ITS TIME FOR ME TO BE BACK ON THAT #METANONIA GRIND, YEAH? RAAHHH
I died previously cus personal shit I needed time to process n go thru stages of grief over (I’m finally reachin acceptance n movin forward :) ) + health shit so I fell behind on personal deadline for next #metanonia chapter b4 this month ends which might not happen-
Nonetheless IM BACKK ON IT !!
Health low 🤕
Depression medium 😶🌫️
Vibes high 🙂↕️🌟
Anyways wanted to try recordin mini bit of me workin n singin as this is literally how im workin rn ehe (ignore the ink on my hand)
Would you want more vids of me workin? ☆
#metanonia #SM_art
Me forgetting to use washing tape for this purpose in inking omg ascending
#metanonia #SM_art #manga #art #oc
A traditional ink pens drawing WIP of zero flicking his hand free of blood. It shows 3 drawings of a hand to show the motion of it in one panel
Lowkey proud of this #metanonia #wip panel as im usually so ASS at hands still n challenged myself to try a motion solo panel like ive seen before :) hopefully it translates
#manga #SM_art #art
Depression is slowing me down suddenly along with my crap health but I wanna try my best to the end for myself to reach my goal of another #metanonia chapter post before the month ends but I am slower which is frustrating
(pls don’t bother me w projections, I am taking care n pacing myself still)
