#DearDiary, Gay Fantasies 1. I turned the big 60 this year, and since I did not have a homosexual experience of any kind until I was in my early thirties… the math on this comes out to the sad fact that for more than half of my life, gay life equalled fantasy life. A hard number to get one’s head around. Happy Pride. So now that I am a fully actualized and long practicing queer, it may or may not come as a surprise to the modern world that I still devote more than a little mental space to fairy land. These old and problematic habits are to the bone, so right now I’m going to go with it. Besides, as my psychiatrist used to say, “Everything is ok in your fantasy life. Even killing people.” Sending a wish on a wing and a prayer into the Universe. For the greater good. For Pride. My fantasy is that the Monster opens up a West Coast outpost, and the masterminds behind the Spunk Party fly in first class my super gorgeous and super stylish friend and penpal Rorke Mair to gogo headline. Rorke is a superstar waiting to happen. Rorke—an artist and artist’s model who is also kind and weird in all the right ways—has generously texted me many reference photos that are far too super hot for Instagram’s increasingly puritanical censorship codes, forcing me to convert this innocent and well-meaning, sex-positive little drawing into a collage. No shame here, FYI. Places I’d Rather Be. The Monster Bar West Spunk Party. And I’d like to the there with Rorke Mair. NON-COLLAGE available at @billmullenink.bsky.social. #TrueConfessions by #BillMullen

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