When I'm joking around with my loved ones and realize I find little characteristics of my dead sister in every single one.
If I hang out with you, just know you're probably victim to this realization of mine.
#GriefIsWeird
My emotions are all topsy-turvy. I'm knee-deep in holiday/loss grief...crying over my writing...but then I am laughing ridiculously hard at fail videos...like WAY harder than I usually do.
#griefisweird #griefjourney #grief
Since then, I have helped countless others mourn and grieve and grow and feel connected, both to their beloved dead and the future they are creating without them. #WitchSky #GriefIsWeird
Today is the 10th anniversary of my dad's death. We were not close, so I don't want him back. It's just strange how different my life is now than it was a decade ago. He has had more of a positive influence on my life since he died than he ever did while alive. #GriefIsWeird
Google photos: “We thought these memories from 2018 would make your day brighter” *shoves photos from 2018 at my best friend’s funeral & of her daughters as they were mourning their mother.
Fuck you google photos. Fuck you.
I still miss you Dani. #GriefIsWeird #Loss #AuthorSEChardou
11 of many...
Interrupting myself here because I found his collar in our travel kit, and am now wearing it like my favorite bracelet until I find a good charm bracelet option. 😅
#PetLoss
#GriefIsWeird
Webpage picture from Grove.com for a mini round egg pan, with various pictures of said pan. The pan is black with a green handle. 🥚🍳🥚🍳
The things that will seize a heart in mourning...
Pan would have used the hell out of this, eh, pan. 😂🐼
She had a little egg pan, but needed a new one every year or so. That kid cooked a lot of eggs...
🥺🙄🫤
#GriefIsWeird
Somewhat ironically, I could never remember Your birthday When you were alive - Always knowing It was a multiple of five, But almost always Guessing the wrong five. But now I know it. I remember it, But I can't Share that knowledge With you This year. And I'll always remember Your passing, Since you left On my birthday, Linking us together Even more Than our identical mouths. I wear your old watches Now, To mark time - The time Since you've been gone And my last chances To know you Passed away too. Happy birthday, Dad - I hope you're teaching the gods How to properly season And smoke meats. August 5, 2025
The old photos that came home from his funeral, with my sister and I, fill in some of the many blank spots we have. There was so much more I wanted to know, but that wasn’t the relationship we had. I’m glad I have his watches to wear.
#typewriter #poetry #griefisweird
The artist I went to didn't want to add on to someone else's work, so we did a separate tattoo.
This morning I had the terrible thought: "Did I lose her bc she wasn't grouped in with her siblings in my ink?"
Utterly ridiculous.
🐼🖤🐼
#GriefIsWeird
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The urn we bought which looks like a clump of books and was perfect for my parents may not fit in the columbarium space I just paid for. The maintenance guy will be consulted. How's your day going? #GriefIsWeird
My daughters and I will return to Alabama, along with my kid sister, to put my father’s ashes in the ground in a week. Still processing my 55yrs of being the son of a man I didn’t know as well as I wish I had.
#typewriter #poetry #fathersandsons #griefisweird
Almost two years since my dad passed, and I still think, when I buy American history books, "Ohhh, I'll send this to Dad when I'm done."
🖤😊
Also, I started to text Pan to ask where her wire cutters are, then remembered that *I* now own those particular wire cutters.
🐼🙄
#GriefIsWeird
A phrase that goes through my head way too often:
"How in the FUCK did I lose a whole ass kid?"
I know how, but it still seems surreal, 16 months later.
#GriefIsWeird
I’ve felt Normal a few times, For a couple minutes, Even laughed And smiled, Probably More than once. I've listened To the sparrows Singing Outside my window, And watched the crows Fight Over a piece Of pizza crust On the sidewalk. Two puppies argued With their leashes, Wrapping themselves Around the legs Of their stumbling human Companion. And then I remembered The phone call And the dead air Before the words, "He's gone." March 27, 2025
Feels normal, until it doesn’t.
#typewriter #poetry #griefisweird
I almost listened to THAT Flogging Molly song today, but caught it just in time. I didn't want to cry today, because I already have a pollen headache.
Institutionalized by ST usually gets to me, but today it did not. Pan carried that Pepsi joke her entire life. 🤣
#GriefIsWeird #MusicThatMakesYouCry
We do not want our tea to taste
No context; just something my daughter started to write and left in my package of sticky labels...🤣
File under "things that mean something because you can't ask questions".
#GriefIsWeird #Pandora
So crazy how a simple rock song I listened to with my dad before going to football games makes me cry so hard. #GriefIsWeird
Grief is a funny thing.
Yesterday I looked at your picture and cried.
Today I looked at your picture and smiled.
#griefjourney #lossofmother #loveyoutothemoonandback🌙 #griefisweird #allthefeels
We saw a heron today at Santhiya Tree Resort in Thailand. #hidad #griefisweird
Each time I loose a pet I wonder if I'll die from broken heart syndrome and when I don't I feel so sad thinking that I didn't love them enough for my body to physically respond in that way. #GriefIsWeird
Today I cried over fruitcake. My Dad and I both loved it. He passed 11 months ago today and I miss being able to call and tell him I found one of our favorites. #fruitcake #griefisweird
Sizeable afghan made of crocheted granny squares with yarn from my mom's collection while I was at the hospital, hospice, and then my dad's house for the aftermath.
When I had to fly home to South Bend unexpectedly in August for The Emergency I didn't have a crochet project with me. So I took what looked like my mom's most expensive yarn hoping she could scold me for it later. This weekend I finished a blanket for my dad. #GriefIsWeird
Grief eating sux. #GriefIsWeird
When your parents die you get this primal urge to visit where you grew up. #GriefIsWeird
