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I think it’s time to output some thoughts on here again. Conjure up some resonance in my mental space. Hey y’all

Absolutely! I want to hear about positioning, water breaks, sensory breaks, non penetrative encounters, body worship, access in K*nk. So needed

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Hey skeezers! If you live somewhere snowy pls practice save shovelling! Prevent unnecessary cardiac emergencies 🚑

The value of the ones I’ve tried really isn’t there, it’s either mostly beans or super small and either way, generally way overpriced.

Getting burned by a safe food is such a distressing experience. Drive thru breakfast wraps have started to taste like griddle cleaning chemicals. It’s totally off-putting but I stomach it cause we not wasting $ in these trying times. Meal prep takes too many spoons even on good days 🫠 #disability

A multi-tiered storage caddy filled with a mix of dog gear, including collars, leashes, and harnesses in a variety of colors and materials. The top tier appears disorganized, with items overlapping and intertwined

Them: “Just assign everything a home where it naturally belongs for ease of access”

*staring at the shit- heap of dog accoutrements by the front door, technically corralled*

Me: but what if it hurts my eyes?

#actuallyautistic #audhd

Me, while the #adhd meds, 300mgs of caffeine and sugar are swirling in my system

When the clutter in your own spaces just melds into general visual landscape but going into other cluttered spaces stresses you out 😩🫠🫠

Wait I can’t haha! It was a link to this fb group. If you join u can see her posts

Oh no- going to send u a msg

Eek! 😍 Idk if you can see this but pls go look at the story albums by a fellow calico lover! I’m so obsessed shorturl.at/pvIXl

Very difficult even at the best of times! Ps- one of my fave comfort shows is Still Game - that or Two Doors Down. Got me through some rough times

Anyone have a gift link of this article with no paywall?

Try not to be too hard on yourself, under capitalism rest and comfort are seen as luxuries rather than inherent human rights!! Balancing survival with well-being is truly a massive challenge 😞

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In combination with loads of regulation with my angel, I feel pretty good after this break. I managed to make 4 meals without burning the house down! What are some ways that you’ve been regulating your nervous system? #actuallyautistic

Incorporating neurodrills like the ones below has unlocked some deeep states of calm and relaxation. I can do them virtually anywhere and they help recenter me. Here’s one:

I’m on new meds now and my nerve pain has reduced significantly (shout out to low dose naltrexone). But the cognitive struggles remain.

I pretty much survived on takeout and misc snacks. Burning a hole through my wallet and confidence in the process.

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I also started experiencing increased fibro flares affecting my hands. Chopping, using heavy cast iron pans and scrubbing caked on food would make my hands ache for hours. My finger joints would scream at me and my splints didn’t help.

A kitchen scene showing a stovetop in use. A frying pan with sautéed food and a red spatula sits on one burner, while a pot of boiling liquid with a wooden spoon rests on another. Steam rises from the pot, and the stovetop shows signs of recent spills. Above the stove, a decorative tile with an illustration of a woman holding scales and the word “BALANÇA” hangs on the wall. Surrounding items include jars of spices, a bottle of olive oil, and a dish towel hanging on the oven handle.

I was burning toast, pots were bubbling over, food was over cooked. I even baked food without seasoning it, once. This chipped away at my confidence and the cleanup was a nightmare.

Next, when I’d eventually get the spoons (and courage) to try and cook it was as if I’d never done it before. I struggle with #timeblindness but “kitchen time” was one of the few spaces that always made sense to me. I’d enter hyperfocus and flow state relatively easily. All that vanished.

I would open the fridge and be awash with a wave of anxiety so strong I’d often tear up and feel dizzy. The same started to happen when I looked in the pantry.

It can be stressful and upsetting to realize you aren’t able to access skills you had prior. It wasn’t a sudden process either. It was a slow, gradual decline that began strangely, with a growing aversion to my fridge.

With enough time spent in a #lowdemands lifestyle I am able to do things like shop for, prepare and cook food! I thought I was in true regression as I haven’t been able to do that in any sustainable way for the past year and half

My body is acutely aware of the difference between rest and recuperation. Rest gets me back to baseline, recuperating on the other hand has the ability to expand my functional bandwidth.

Morning y’all! Back to work today after a 12 day vacation. Some reflections in a 🧵 :

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The same Black person standing outdoors at night near a post with string lights hanging above. In the same outfit. This time the background includes a fenced yard, greenery, and neighboring houses illuminated by outdoor lights

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Pro tip: look hot and leave early. In an effort to reduce the effects of PEM we ditched our dinner date early. Pacing isn’t easy but gone are the days of borrowing from tomorrow. The limit does in fact exist! #chronicillness #migraineur #fibro

Come thru skin, wow 🤩

Yesss 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

Toss your phone across the room onto a soft surface! Wriggle in the warm bed, say brb and go get ur phone! Tada now you’re up, might as well throw some socks on and start ur task- or stay in bed and be cozy. Either way you got this