Kindness Goes a LONG Way!!! Page 85 of 365 Good Morning Lovies. I know, I have been scatter brained and my entries have been few and far between.  I apologize for that....

Don't be cruel!!!

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Bitch Fest Commencing I wasn't sure I wanted to write a second entry today, but something has irritated me the past few days; I felt it was important to vent ab...

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When The Toll Catches You Page 25 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. How are you today? For those of you who are in the area... please stay safe, and warm as possible; hell...

What is the going price???

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A B&W photo of a pile of used tissues

It’s been a productive day
#depressionsky

I have been living pretty comfortably for some years moneywise. Not great, but I didn't have to be afraid that I won't be able to go to dentist or buy boots for winter. Now times are changing due to reasons I cannot control. It impacts my mental health tremendously.

#depressionsky #depression

Honestly, I'm just tired..

#depressionsky

I have a roommate who's nice enough. The most important thing as I go to sleep is - will she snore? Because if she does, I won't be able to sleep. Psych ward contemplations.

#mentalhealh #mentalhospital #bpdsky #depressionsky #depression #fuckmylife

As a depressed mentally fucked human my hygiene isnt great, i have shower trauma and seeing my body fully naked makes me wanna kms

I also often forget to brush my teeth for days on end leading to broken teeth, cavities, and extreme sensitivity

And that it okay.

#depressionsky #mentalillnessinnit

( ID: "Was this book good or was I deeply 19 when I read it:" An investigative journalism series. )

...don't come at me like that..

When I first read "Heir Apparent" by Vivian Vande Velde and the "Tithe" Series by Holly Black it was a "cannon event".

#autismsky #reader #depressionsky

( ID: Tumblr user maxknightley: it's funny how "being autistic" + "having a wide variety of interests" + "the various social and financial obligations of an adult" combine to create a situation where I have to actively set aside time to Watch Cartoons or I'll never get around to it Tumblr user maxknightley: Yeah sorry I can't hang out this weekend I've been putting off Playing Toys for five months and I can't kick that can down the road any longer )

I have so many hobbies, and interests - but I feel like I'll never get to them because if I'm not actively interested in it at the moment I won't touch it.

...which is frustrating.

#autismsky #autisticsky #depressionsky

"We had no idea you felt like that.."

Tumblr Blog: Oh, there were signs..

#tumblrposts #depressionsky #bloggersky #bpdsky

I was told to be myself, I did and now I can't have grapefruit.

#bpdsky #bipolarsky #depressionsky #severeanxietysky #humorishowicope

Can't fucking sleep.

But I can't have any coffee either, due to me taking my magnesium gummies - because if I mix those, it won't be great to deal with those side affects.

So I get to see here, exhausted and unable to sleep without my comfy beverage.

#insomnia #insomniasky #depressionsky

( ID: Tumblr user salvadorbonaparte: I'm immune to the "what if your mother had an abortion/had aborted you" argument not only because of the whole "if I don't exist how would I care" paradox but also because I recognize my mother as a human being with agency and because I do not consider the concept of motherhood and abortion mutually exclusive. people who had abortions can become parents later on. parents can have abortions. how do know my mother didn't have an abortion at some point? or yours? )

If my Mother would have had the abortion she screamed at me about wanting, after I came out looking like my Dad and not like her - I wouldn't have gone through years of trauma, neglect and abuse.

It would be quiet, actually.

#abortion #cptsdsky #depressionsky #bpdsky

Panic cleaned the entire kitchen and made penne pasta with sausage at midnight. All because I cannot handle the stress that has been thrown onto my shoulders.

I hate feeling powerless.

Atleast I'm a good cook.

#depressionsky #severeanxietysky #insomnia

( ID: The worst thing about finally coming to terms and acknowledging your limitations when you're mentally or physically disabled, especially when it's chronic, is when someone who means well, a family member, a best friend, etc - tries to convince you that you in fact do not have those limitations. It tends to be coupled with "you can do everything you set your mind to!" but the thing is, it takes a lot of self forgiveness and self acceptance to admit to yourself that you have a limitation. It is not easy to allow yourself limitations because it's frowned upon when a disabled person does not do their best to hide their disability. When I say I cannot do something, trying to encourage me to do it anyway does not make me feel better. It instead makes me feel invalidated and fall back into the pattern of 'maybe they're right, and I'm just faking or being lazy', which completely negates all the work put into the process of self love and self acceptance. )

I sometimes feel this way, but honestly don't know if the judgment comes from others or from myself.

#disabledsky #depressionsky #fibromyalgiasky

( ID: Life with chronic pain is just constantly looking at something that brings you joy, assessing how much pain it might cause you in the future, and then deciding if the trade off is worth it. It often isn't, but there's such a crushing boredom in prioritizing your health sometimes. )

Depends on the mood from day to day.

I do the things anyways. I'll deal with the pain later as long as I get in those moments of joy. It's quite the rollercoaster of joy/flare-up.

#fibromyalgiasky #disabledsky #depressionsky

( ID: Meme featuring Sheldon Cooper in a blue shirt with a DNA design. The text above reads, "How are you doing?' Me: "Oh, my, that's an uncomfortable topic." )

Oh, we're just not gonna open that door.

#bpdsky #bipolarsky #depressionsky

( ID: Split-screen meme with a neutral expression on a mannequin face. Text reads, "my constant need for affection vs my disgust of vulnerability." )

Imma stay withdrawn, it's safer.

#bpdsky #isolationsky #depressionsky

( ID: Are you a "don't fucking touch me or I'll rip ur spine out through ur throat" traumatized or a "please please touch me I need physical validation to live" traumatized. Yes. )

I don't like the accuracy of this.

#bpdsky #depressionsky #cptsdsky

Having a rough day - Pabu was up all night having accidents and I've been monitoring him. The vet said this would happen after his surgery.

He's fully healed, but his bottom will never be what it was.

I'm just tired. He's tired.

#depressionsky #insomniasky #thepabutag

( ID: If you stick around long enough, I might show you the oldest parts of my personality. The ones that used to be punished. )

Trying my best to be myself.

#bpdsky #depressionsky

( ID: No, my chronic pain doesn't make your occasional aches and pain less valid. But your occasional aches and pains don't magically grant you understanding of what I feel everyday. )

I've never diminished what other people are going through - but when they tell me to "try some yoga" or "go for a walk" it really irks me.

#fibromyalgiasky #disabledsky #chronicallyillsky #spooniesky #depressionsky

( ID: T-shirt that reads I STRUGGLE TO INTERACT WITH OTHERS. And on the back says I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. )

I mean, yeah...

But JFC.

#autismsky #bpdsky #depressionsky

Due to unfortunate circumstances beyond my control, I'm alive.

#bpdsky #bpd #depressionsky #depression

( ID: I'm such a "I want your attention" but "won't bother you" kinda person. Got that vampire autism, where you gotta invite me in every time. )

Even more, I got that "vampire autism" where you need to expressly TELL ME that you're joking or I'm going to not see that social cue or the joke itself.

My brain is absolutely shit fucked.

#autismsky #bpdsky #depressionsky

( ID: Let me be angry that I'm chronically ill. Let me feel jealous, and cheated, and all the horrible feelings that come before acceptance. I'm not yet ready to accept that my life will be full of chronic pain and fatigue and migraines and vomiting. Eventually I'll figure it out, and I'll learn to live with it. But right now I'm scared and confused and I'm angry. This is really important. Even when you do learn to live with it - and you will - it's okay to get angry, especially on bad days. Feelings hit you in waves, and being honest abotu your anger isn't a bad thing. )

Felt this. I have days of acceptance, days of frustration, days of anger, days of sadness… it all just comes and goes.

#twvomitmention #disabledsky #disabilitysky #chronicallyillsky #depressionsky

( ID: Silhouette of an embracing couple filled with a galaxy pattern. A quote beside reads, "You are worth finding... one million layers.")

Never doubt yourself.

#depressionsky #hopepunksky #wholesome

( ID: Tumblr user saxifraga-x-urbium: important home cooking edicts: you can sit down to do it you can buy things pre-chopped frozen is fine tinned is fine microwave is fine the powder version is fine the box mix is fine the correct recipe is the one that you like the most the correct method is the one that you can do good nutrition is the food you can actually eat and enjoy do not eat mouldy or rotten food you do not need to wash the chicken you are going to cook the chicken washing the chicken just spreads raw meat bacteria all over the kitchen please stop washing chicken it is not necessary and it is the opposite of helpful don't use raw meat knife for raw veggies or cheese unless you've washed it good authenticity is a lie, make the version that you personally enjoy you are the person who is going to be eating it i am serious stop giving a fuck about someone's imaginary nonna disapproving of your food she's not the one eating it you are the correct amount of spice is the amount you are happy with food that looks a mess can still taste just fine, your stomach isn't instagram check you turned the stove off after all condiments go with all things it is your mouth they're going into unusal flavour combinations can be really effective! check the plastic/glass is heatsafe before putting boiling water in it )

( ID: most foods can be frozen do not put dripping wet thing into hot fat. regret. salt set timer. "i'll just remember it's in the oven" that is the devil talking set a fucking timer the washing machine is not a cooking appliance if the cat has sat on it or licked it you need to wash it before you eat with/from it. see also dog wash hands after handling raw meat and before handling cheese that you're not cooking. most germs do not survive being cast into the flames if you like cheese you can and should put cheese on that. do not eat the off egg. it will not be fine. you will have a bad bathroom time. different oils have different smoke points. a smoke point is when the pan starts smoking. it makes stuff taste less good and stick to the pan. sometimes less heat for longer is what you want. you cannot always do big heat for short time. if you want short time because you're in a hurry: microwave. do not put the wet thing in the toaster it can be soup. it can always be soup. non-stick does not mean no oil skipping preheating is not a good idea and makes things stick to stuff and cook weirdly the correct texture for the noodles/pasta is the one that you are happy eating see also egg )

One of my golden rules: fed is best.

I’ll eat dinner at breakfast if I want, and desert for dinner if I want.

#disabledsky #chronicallyillsky #disabilitysky #depressionsky

( ID: I've torn out the chapters where I begged for love and draft new ones where I become it. )

I’ve been thinking a lot about my past trying to remember it and also being embarrassed when I do.

#bpdsky #borderlinesky #depressionsky