There’s our NINEVEH fresh back from the grocery store where she got some orange soda, honey, bacon, n a few other things…
2 hrs until the 1st “date” I’ve had w someone not Akiko nor Sian in a long long time. Me n S started dating… 4 days shy of a year ago. Akiko n I never dated. We just shacked up.) Anyway, this is a friend date. I’m gonna clean until she gets here. #NiniJourney #Dating #NiniRestart #LGBTQ #TransWoman
working on Pt 2 video of written journal, honoring current phase of therapeutic progress thru the emotionally, socially, spiritually, & mentally destructive n debilitating injury of summer 2025. I take my time, keep it clean—not about deceptive blame. That’s why it’s taking half a year. #NiniRestart
Comfort zone… My bed, a couple blankets; that described “wall“, a Guadalupe candle, an Apple TV remote control, and a plants vs zombies stuffie
My bed is huge, but I have made this ‘wall’ next to me of clean clothes wrapped in a sheet. It’s no cuddle partner, but when I’m sleepy, I back myself into it until it slumps over me slightly n that feels close enough like a big spoon lover who gently comforts me into dreams… #NiniRestart #Comfort
I didn’t get to all the Qs I wanted to. N I’m still working on my next installment of my 2023 - 2025 written journal. It’s honesty like a knife, even more direct n bare than I write here. Not doing it for sensationalism. Some casts a spotlight into areas I never speak on. But now, must. #NiniRestart
my guardian angel thought I was ready for more knowledge so last night I was given more insight into the depth n length of planning, as well as that there was more people involved than I thought, when Akiko left. I understand why I had to wait. There was another level of pain in knowing #NiniRestart
Closing my bank also will kill many streaming channels n that’s another piece of freedom I think. I think I’m slowly unplugging from everything here. I don’t know what comes after that. Akiko started the dominoes. There’s less n less for me here. Only my acting now…
#RIOTQUEENS #PDX #NiniRestart
Putting on a 3 1/2 min song 2 use that time stretching the body
Exploring, firming up entirely a new set of rituals, household behaviors, n living style is NOT a quick job n I’ve been at this for 6 months. I will be going for another six months now that the ugly cleanup part is done
#NiniRestart
By no means am I runnin a tight ship even 6 mos after The Great Abandonment, but I AM shaving the chaos down to a gorgeous sculpture that fits my grip. Sliver by sliver, n yeh sometimes I drop the sandpaper. Sometimes I pause to sharpen my knife. But I’m getting there. Bcz I don’t stop. #NiniRestart
Sometimes I wake up n realize she’s no longer in my house or my life, n I cry. N sometimes I wonder if she was ever here. She was a beautiful aura, a mood, hints of a story…did she want to know me? Did she want to be with me? Were we ever together? Truly? Were we ever more than a dream? #NiniRestart
Well, I did it. !! I pushed thru n finished the kitchen. All dishes, all pots, under the stove, the cabinets, all the recycling n everything else 🥳🍾🎊
That was a major house area. Tomorrow, next is organizing all my clothes—so I can stop shifting piles around ! #NiniRestart
I’ve made amazing progress inna house, tho it has taken 5 mos. Still… On the other side of these valleys, these fires, these crucibles… Is yr lighter self. If u want. If u can face the pain, if u can face yrself.
It’s hard enough to suffer. I never want to suffer in vain. #NiniJourney #NiniRestart
EVICTION!! #Mice #NiniJourney #NiniRestart
It took me a few hours, but I went right for the heart of the beast, n now it lies slain b4 my feet. Thought I would feel pure relief. I didn’t expect finishing to unleash all the emotions it did #NiniRestart #Loss I guess… removes a last trace of the old life. Reveals what poor shape it was in.
The repository of nightmares… The scary cabinet. I have faced my fears n I have emerged victorious. I don’t even know how long it took. I just got lost in the project.
😧😨😰😱 THE SCARY CABINET … gotcha
I went right for the hardest part of the house left #NiniRestart
Nineveh in her Fallout gear
I’m deep into the Scary Cabinet by now, girlies !!!😩🤯🥺😳 I have a huge thick zippered up winter coat over this as I work + both gloves on !! We’re doing it! Gonna finish by tonight! #NiniRestart
I have made my way thru ALL house areas post-abandonment, now—except upstairs corner room: (upended furniture, boxes, littered w memories n sorrow)
N corner cabinet (rodents n spiders)
The quest feels apt. I am a fan of metaphor n symbolism. These areas will be clean b4 the new year. #NiniRestart
🏎️ CH CH CH CH CH CH CHANGES!! my kitchen will never again look the same… No more sink full of dishes. I forbid it! #NiniRestart #NiniJourney
This is a digital illustration I created for a video game, years ago. Credit NINEVEH de la Luz Herrera
🎨 RING THA BELLS GIRLIE!!! We FINALLY sound the death knell of Nineveh's unemployment era!!! Years inna making!! 🫠 I am assisting the dir./doing art/video/web design for a Latine #LGBTQ #trans org!! 😲🤩 What a fit, right? We call that fate. Grace. #HumanArt #NiniRestart #NiniJourney #TransWoman #Art
she came over to slip inside the sheets, fall asleep, watch bojack w me
n how beautiful, when there’s a conflict, we sit, even silent, but don’t run from it — don’t leave the scene until we’re done w it
#NiniRestart
There r only 2 dance videos I made that have this haunting end note. Special title card. I would say this was the very depths, right before I passed through the valley, after A— & S— left me.
After that, the climb began, back to light. #NiniJourney #NiniRestart #TransArtist #Healing #DanceWithNini
session suin ine meantime do you nav Also any chance you can host? Yes, I can host! I've been getting my home ready fo
🗺️ Efforts building #Portland #community still movin fwd! This, I began a few months ago when I realized, suddenly—I had not invested much in local #queer #LGBTQ #Trans community but instead sourced all comfort, friendship, n love, romantically. (I’d advise new trans women against this!) #NiniRestart
I remember how hard I looked for these. I was trying to put in the air conditioner. In the window. I felt like 1-3 just put them down next to me and they disappeared. But I guess I'm the way l've always been and that isn't what happened at all. I don't know how they got to be 5 miles down inside the couch. But there they are. The search is over. Finally.🥺
Yah, silly, but I cried finding these just now, deep deep in the couch, looking for the remote. Just slumped to the rug n bawled.
The very first thing I lost in this house, setting up the AC. Family was so happy then; escaping the motel, setting up our new amazing place 🏡🥲 #NiniJourney #NiniRestart
SO rewarding 2 interact w people in this way, organizing a group—as myself—now. Also no longer bogged down in confusing relationship disintegration that continually made me feel like a failure. That’s not all I am! 😝 I’m also friendly, generous, considerate, warm. N I’m good at leading. #NiniRestart
Wasn’t hard to recruit 2 potential other members for our weekly queer woman D&D campaign! didn’t think so. Much harder to find ppl who want to start it with you. I knew once I found them, we could find the rest. Woohoo! I’m excited for this D&D project, n proud of me for making moves! #NiniRestart
N I am v much still establishing my rituals n my spaces… n that’s some of my favorite part, fr. Each move I make there grounds me more, connects me. Creates conversation w the world; w the plant, the water, my needs, my cooperation. makes me feel I belong here. That I can hold it down. #NiniRestart
a strange, parallel, emotional journey… Every day I am happier n calmer in my space. Simple joys of taking yr time n playing yr music n finding yrself again…
but also grieving still… never knowing when it will stab me without warning, bring me to my knees, in tears…
this is life
🩵🤍🩷
#NiniRestart
Great 1st night weekly #DND sesh! Had fun playing Munchkin, set basic social rules, boundaries 2 set a good foundation for successful gaming going forward. Got to feel each other out a little bit, break the ice. Proud of me for following thru on plans, on daring new things; on healing. #NiniRestart
🐦🔥 BOOM, shift—
Replied to a woman on one of my FB groups who really needs to get out on the town after sitting around post relationship for the same amount of time as me! She’s also a Xicana. !! We’re getting together lata n see if we can find something fun to do in good ole PDX ! #NiniRestart 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️
🌄 It’s exciting 2 me 2 be getting ready 2 have company for the first time, not just after a difficult n lonesome time of loss grieving n healing… But as ME. It really does feel like a new chapter in life. One year, transitioning. Old crew is gone. Old me is gone. New path is here. #NiniRestart
