Tearing down a MMJ bowl hard and fast. A donation from a generous supplier will now tame down the pain, so my #cptsd will untrigger, #hyperalert will slow down and i can force myself to be less cunty.
Because people- ALL PEOPLE, are dangerous as hell and best kept away with distain and savagery.
Managed to scrape up a few buds. I'll be back in detox in a day or two, but theres nothing i can do about that.
#cptsd #ptsd #hyperalert #emotionaldysregulation
#neurodivergent
IM FEELING VERY ATTACKED RIGHT NOW
#cptsd #emotionalFlashback #wtf #ptsd #hyperalert #anxiety
I just wish i had enough vape or weed for the next week.
Im going out and doing more than i have in five years, and its blowing my #cptsd #hyperalert up in way i dont like. Everything is razor edged and im iding every background noise. #peoplearedangerous
They are #HyperAlert to the #repeat_of_history.
Now, consider your own #lived_experience:
🤔 you know what it feels like to live in a state of #constant_vigilance?
They are #HyperAlert to the repeat of history.
Now, consider your own lived experience, do you know what it feels like to live in a state of #constant_vigilance?
Still ISO a downtown #hamOnt based general #doctor or #NursePracticioner with a #trauma aware practice willing to take on a 50+ nerdy American refugee with #cptsd, #arthritis, #degenerativediskdisease, #hypertension who is triggered by condecention and stuck in #hyperalert
Yeah, i wouldnt want me.
Its hard to threaten someone who has had #cptsd, and #suicideIdeation since childhood, who has nothing left to lose. I'll happily lean into your muzzle at this point. My eyes will beg you for it.
Im so tired. I asked for the #stellateGanglionReset but i just hear crickets
#hyperalert #ptsdsupport
Bullshit always gotta trigger my stupid goddamn brain when i dont have enough fucking #weed to shut it the hell OFF, which always makes ir WOOOORSE.
#CPTSD #HYPERALERT #mmj #fml #neurodivergence #abused #meltdown
Feeling very much in fight mode and want to hide and i hate it i hate it i hate it. This stupid crap with #eiwo 's fucking plumbers are giving me anxiety attacks as well as giving me fucking #tinnitus
#hyperalert #disability #needAlawyer #CandiansWithDisabilitiesAct
I hear a train horn. Immediately i think, "i could be under that train. Then it wont hurt anymore". I dont remember not thinking about #suicide.
#suicideideation #cptsd #doubledepression #mentalhealth #hyperalert
