A(nother) reason why Jerk is called "Jerk". Tearing up birds on my patio is a pretty jerky move. Earlier, the day this photo was taken, she was rather impatient, thus tearing a up a bird on my patio. I wish she didn't do that because that's just a mess for me to clean up and I very much don't want to do that. On a note, at least, she's desexed so there's that.

"Feathers"
#straycats #offlinegoings #cats #melancholy #finepixjx520 #LittleJerk #fujifilm #Fujifilmfinepix #blackandwhitephotography

1996 She doesn't celebrate her natal day No, that's just a day A day of lamentation A begining to a white elephant (existence is not a gift) Supposedly, she was supposed to be rid of Was that true or was that Father's cruel diatribe? Truth is always somewhere in-betwixt (she wasn't wanted either way) She doesn't know if Mother fully understands Fully understands what she tells her Though, if she were to visit, She'd make a point of openly lamenting That she was not terminated Those years ago

My birthday is coming and I hate it.
#offlinegoings #melancholy #tumblr #birthdayblues #death #abortion #stillbirth #ideations #depression #dementia #birthday

I have a breast exam this coming Friday and I am distraught. 😞
#offlinegoings #melancholy

Utterly crushed.
#offlinegoings #heartbroken

Riku Can't Be a Goddess

I wasn't supposed to buy anything from Barnes and Noble but I found myself intrigued enough to buy it. I just don't have the attention span to read particularly much.

#offlinegoings #Books #kumitamaru

Sahra could actually hold the umbrella.
#dollphotography #melancholy #blackandwhite #cupoche #dollhybrid #doll #azonelilfairy #picconeemo #fujifim #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #liccachan #seldomseen #depression #winter #rain #sahra #offlinegoings #signatured

I've seen something awful happen Yes, it is very awful I have seen it coming, have you all, too? It is the collapse of what was The collapse of what was is coming Can't you see? This was happening all along Democracy is fading Politicians lie Freedom and the persuit of happiness no longer matter The economy has fallen Many jobs have been lost Many hurt and many scream People blame, people complain Nevertheless, what for? The country is rife with corruption and greed The things I speak of are The Collapse Cringe and be afraid The Collapse was inevitable It was building up Laying dormant Now it has awakened It is happening and I have seen it coming Yet, it came Cringe and be afraid We are in the shadow of the The Collapse

I wrote this back in 2013 and I wonder if there was something I knew back then that I didn't know now. Maybe it's hindsight, I suppose, considering certain political goings.
#offlinegoings #poettok #poetry #freeverse #fyp #poem #shortpoem #oldpoem #musings #written2013 #fckuspolitics

I got a couple of Mini Brands Kawaii. No, it didn't cheer me up but Mako's happy.

#offlinegoings #toyagraphy #mobilephotography #pixlr #gashapon #minibrands #melancholy #blackandwhitephotography #blackandwhite #MakoMankanshoku #killlakill

A few musings.
#musings #savetiktok #tiktokban #offlinegoings #winter #covid19
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Got my Miniverse Happy Hours, today.

Better to indulge in these, than the real thing.
#offlinegoings #melancholy #miniverse

I pray that, whatever is wrong with my body, it's benign.

My existence may be a short one but I don't want to go out like this. 😞
#PCOS #anxiety #upset #offlinegoings #faith #prayers #gynecologicalwoes

A fun fact, I guess, is that, if you want to keep or reuse the cute little dishes, you put wax paper in it and then you applied the resined creation. It takes longer to cure, however. The cups came out better than the last ones, I guess. I got more of those lox bagels but I decided to make "fun bagels", which involves strawberries, jam, cream cheese, bananas (ironically, I don't eat bananas), a little bit of cereal, and some of that sugar stuff. I got a little roll cake and so decorated that.

Current Creations
#offlinegoings #miniverse #melancholy

Mako getting her pickles from her fridge to eat with her lox bagels, as the Baby observes.

As one can see, some of the Miniverse and Mini Brands stuff fits in the fridge. What's in the fridge is a carton of eggs, two Mason jars of strawberries, two bagels, and a container of carrots. She's not got much for groceries but she's got groceries.

"Mako's Kitchen"

#offlinegoings #melancholy #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #fujifilm #digitalphotography #miniverse #toyagraphy #MakoMankanshoku #killlakill #figma #picconeemo #teenytinies #minibrands #gashapon #makostuff #blackandwhite #brokenheart #christmas

The Sonic movie was pretty nice. I wish I didn't leave my ear protectors at home, however. 😞

#offlinegoings #sonicmovie #sonic #toyagraphy #melancholy

Earlier, I found a quilted heart. It needed a home and, so, at the moment, it's tucked away safe.

There's more to say but I haven't the words. 🥺
#offlinegoings #quiltedheart

This didn't come out right but it's still functional as a cup, so there's that.
#offlinegoings #miniverse #melancholy

I like this pattern enough, however, the pants are long enough to drag on the floor, thus, I hem them. I wish they weren't hard to hem.
#offlinegoings #sewing #melancholy #pajamas

My left arm, which didn't bleed.

My arm, which produced 4 vials of blood.

Had an endocrinologist appointment. Got stuck twice because my left arm wouldn't cooperate.
#offlinegoings #illgirl #endocrinology

Mako seems to like the new plants.

#offlinegoings #toyagraphy #MakoMankanshoku #killlakill #figma #digitalphotography #blackandwhitephotography #miniverse #melancholy #depression #forafriend #finepixjx520 #fujifilm #fujifilmfinepix

"An Empty Nest"
#fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #fujifilm #ohio #suburbanohio #melancholy #offlinegoings #blackandwhitephoto #digitalphotography

I got this comment on one of my Tiktoks.

As if "Your body, my choice", doesn't already feel violating to read. 💔
#offlinegoings #tiktok #upset #politics

"They're waiting for me...."

A poem born of sorrow and lost pets.
#offlinegoings #poetry #petloss #poetrytwitter #sorrow #loss #tiktok #brokenheart #faith #love #venting #poetsonmastodon #poetsonbluesky

For more context, "Polaris" is her name and she's not bloomed since I first got her (she was already in bloom) but, recently, she's sprouted a spike and, as of this writing, she's got 2 (going on 3) blooms.
#offlinegoings

I wonder if it means anything, with much considered. 🥺 🙏
#offlinegoings #love #shorts #orchid #poettok #poetry #freeverse #fyp #poem #shortpoem #musings #written2024 #writtenonthefly #writing #poemtok #faith #heartbreak #praying #planttok #houseplants #melancholy #depression #poemwithapic

My heart hurts. 💔
#brokenheart #offlinegoings

"Red Smile"

Based on a painting by Yuko Tatsushima. 🥲
#offlinegoings #poettok #poetry #freeverse #fyp #poem #shortpoem #musings #written2022 #oldpoem #tumblr #tiktok #yukotatsushima #mentalillness #cryingforhelp #fyp #falsesmile #yukotatsushimaart #shorts

Impulse got the better of me and I wound up submitting a manuscript to a publisher.

I am scared and apprehensive, certainly, but I submitted it and so I can't take it back.

If this falls through, I'll go with KDP.
#offlinegoings #writing #poetry #uhoh #anxiety #publishing #apprehension

"Bloodstained Butterflies"

I might use this in the anthology. Then again, I'd likely not.
#offlinegoings #butterflies #melancholy #ink #wetmedia #watetcolors #shikishi

How do you know if you're experiencing "ennui"?

🥺
#offlinegoings #upset

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