Trying not to drive myself crazy...

#Anxiety
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

I need to figure out what to do and then try to muster up the energy do start doing it.

I don't want yet another day of not being able to do anything.

I realize I got my cooking done, but my brain says that doesn't count. 🙄

#Anxiety
#Depression
#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

Trying to convince myself that I deserve nice things and if I splurge and do something nice for myself, nothing horrible will happen...

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#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

I'm having an inordinate amount of anxiety about buying a bag of chips at the store. No, i don't know why.

Mental illness is fun like that...

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#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

Every little thing is irritating me.

I'm ticked off and annoyed and everything seems to make it worse...

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#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

Having olfactory hallucination again... 😒

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#SchizoAffective

I hate feeling like I'm not allowed to do things...

#Anxiety
#Depression
#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

fellow schizo specs i love you

i love you fellow schizo specs

#disability #schizospec #schizophrenia #schizoaffective #madpunk #madpride

I'm sure it's an executive dysfunction thing.

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#Depression
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

Me and the voices in my head.

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#SchizoAffective

I managed to visit Shambhala and do a few things in #ACNH.

Now, I'm trying to get #WRC started...

And trying NOT to just give up an lie down for a little while.

#Avolition
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

I keep hallucinating smells that I can't quite place. It's familiar, but I still don't know.

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#SchizoAffective

#schizoaffective

a cartoon character named mr. krabs is standing in front of a blue door ALT: a cartoon character named mr. krabs is standing in front of a blue door

I have to do the dishes today since I didn't yesterday. And hopefully play something for a bit.

Yesterday feels like a big waste because I only got cooking goulash, laundry and a bunch of wrestling OC profiles done.

#Avolition
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

How Mental Illness Affected my Ability to Think I’m exhausted today. It’s Friday and I’ve had a helluva week. Between the Pilot’s airbags randomly deploying while I was driving home on Saturday (yeah, I know, scary, huh?) and dealing with my fin…

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#mentalillness #episode #psychosis #mentallyill #insidementalillness #journal #disability #schizoaffective #bipolar #schizophrenia #therapy #EMDR #talktherapy #invisibleillness #explanationnotanexcuse #mentalhealth #healthcare #goodtherapistsarehardtocomeby #recovery

#madeit #no #yeahhedid #schizoaffective 🚘🔦

IE. AAA Rey de Reyes streamed live last night on YouTube, I discovered.

But I feel like I'm not allowed to do anything besides sit here in silence.

And I ESPECIALLY can't do things I enjoy.

#Anxiety
#Depression
#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

Voices/anxiety/depression already ramping up hard...

Today feels like it's going to be a rough one...

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#Depression
#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

A posca pen drawing of a ball and chain

Getting my feelings about health into a drawing ♿️

#pwd #schizoaffective #mcas #pnes #dysautonomia #bipolar

I just want to DO something to distract from all the #anxiety and #depression...

#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

If you seen me
Sitting in public
quiet still looking
straight forward
you would think
everything is
fine

But if you could
gaze and penetrate
through my eyes
and read my mind
you would see
and hear my mind
Scream insanity
trapped inside
the body of stillness #nostalgic #schizoaffective #Emoetry

Touched a dead body. Xi in public. #prisonbus #nymphomniac #lesbian #compulsivelie #schizoaffective 🇯🇵🎥

If you seen me
Sitting in public
quiet still looking
straight forward
you would think
everything is
fine

But if you could
gaze and penetrate
through my eyes
and read my mind
you would see
and hear my mind
Scream insanity
trapped inside
the body of stillness #poetrycommunity #schizoaffective

If you seen me
Sitting in public
quiet still looking
straight forward
you would think
everything is
fine

But if you could
gaze and penetrate
through my eyes
and read my mind
you would see
and hear my mind
Scream insanity
covered inside
the body of stillness #poetrycommunity #schizoaffective

And now I'm paranoid about my apartment building burning down for no reason.

Add that to the paranoia about having to see my latest psych doc in an in person appointment "just because we hadn't yet."

#Anxiety
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

It's not even 11am and my brain already says I need to do everything right this second or I'm a failure.

#Depression
#Anxiety
#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

Sure doesn't feel like it.

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#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

Stupid brain...

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#Anxiety
#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

I want to try to knock out a couple more wrestlers today in #WWE2K26.

Assuming I can get myself to play it...

#Depression
#Anxiety
#Avolition
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective

Just had an olfactory hallucination of the smell of Big Red gum on someone's breathe.

#Schizophrenia
#SchizoAffective