Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

2 days ago

Medications: Part Fourteen I had a really good weekend. I’m feeling less anxious from the Honda’s airbags randomly deploying as the days pass. I’m noticing I’m still on edge a bit. I’m still needing my PRN anxiety medication…

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#mentalillness #medications #prescriptions #pharmacy #RX #supplements #medicine #healthcare #doctors #functionalmedicine #advocate #selflove #anxiety #frustration #disability #chronicpain #invisibleillness #tapering #reducingdose #chronicillness #mentalhealth

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

1 week ago

My Car Traumas I’ve been stressed this week. Well, actually, I’ve been super anxious. It’s from what happened with my Honda. I didn’t really go into it last week because I wanted to cover another topic. But I’ll …

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#mentalillness #car #trauma #accident #EMDR #therapy #enneogram #disability #invisibleillness #newcar #finances #mentallyill #differencesinbehavior #anxiety #carwreck #stabbing #airbags #budget #trapped #talktherapy #chronicpain

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

2 weeks ago

How Mental Illness Affected my Ability to Think I’m exhausted today. It’s Friday and I’ve had a helluva week. Between the Pilot’s airbags randomly deploying while I was driving home on Saturday (yeah, I know, scary, huh?) and dealing with my fin…

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#mentalillness #episode #psychosis #mentallyill #insidementalillness #journal #disability #schizoaffective #bipolar #schizophrenia #therapy #EMDR #talktherapy #invisibleillness #explanationnotanexcuse #mentalhealth #healthcare #goodtherapistsarehardtocomeby #recovery

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

3 weeks ago

What I’ve Learned Advocating for Myself in Healthcare (and more!) As down on myself as I get for not being social, I have been more social the past few months. I just haven’t really made any more friends. Which is fine right now. I’m not gonna get down on myself …

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Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

3 weeks ago

My Automatic Self Loathing Has Been Quelled With that rheumatologist appointment last week… I was unpacking it in therapy on Wednesday this week. My therapist said how mindblowing it was. She said it was a horrible thing that happened, but a…

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#mentalillness #selftalk #automaticthinking #negativeselftalk #therapy #shittydoctor #healthcare #innervoice #innermonologue #thoughts #subconscious #innerdialogue #reframing #talktherapy #EMDR #CBT #hallucinations #voices #disability #invisibleillness #chronicpain

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

4 weeks ago

My Rheumatologist Appointment Went Terribly… It is my birthday week. I had a good time besides a shitty appointment with my rheumatologist, who will no longer be my doctor now. I’ll get into it. Number one his office is a little over 40 minut…

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#mentalillness #rheumatologist #inflammation #food #affects #glutenintolerance #rheumatoidarthritis #fibromyalgia #baddoctor #doctor #healthcare #keepsick #disability #invisibleillness #chronicpain #autoimmune #dangerouspractice #arthritis #invalid #pain

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

1 month ago

I Did DNA Testing and Holy S#!t I’ve still been having minimal symptoms again this week. I heard some music – the “radio DJ” I call it, the other week while at my parents house. But since then, I’ve just been listening to t…

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#schizophrenia #bipolar #hypothyroidism #celiacs #rheumatoidarthritis #autoimmune #petersanomaly #antipsychotics #niacin #supplements #functionalmedicine #dna #genetictesting #validation #pathogenic #highrisk #association #disability #chronicpain #invisibleillness

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

1 month ago

Memories and a Reaction This week went well. Just like the last several weeks. It’s bizarre really. To have this many good days in a row. I honestly think the last time this happened, the last time I had this many good da…

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#mentalillness #france #travel #chronicpain #tumeric #supplements #antiinflammatoryfoods #nanoPRPinjections #lumbarRFAablation #backpain #kneepain #elimination #glutenfree #psychosis #hallucinations #episode #gluten #sick #digestion #grateful #invisibleillness #disability

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

1 month ago

My Changes and a Disclaimer I haven’t been having many symptoms lately. It’s scary honestly. I don’t know when they’ll surface again. It’s like I’m on a rollercoaster, right at the top of a big hill, after you’ve gotten past …

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#mentalillness #episode #psychosis #schizophrenia #schizoaffective #supplements #orthomolecular #nonFDAapproved #doyou #healthcare #antipsychotics #vitamins #deficiencies #nontraditional #invisibleillness #chronicpain #disability #hanicapable #nojudgement

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

1 month ago

Supplements, Diet, and my Mental Health The Niacin (Vitamin B3) and Vitamin C are working really well to help curb my hallucinations and delusions. So well that I cut my Haloperidol completely out last Friday. The withdrawal of that was …

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#mentalillness #niacin #vitaminc #vitamindeficiency #foodsensitivity #gluten #antispychotics #appointments #arthritis #medications #alternativemedicine #supplements #sugar #dietrestrictions #inflammation #brain #disability #invisibleillness #chronicpain

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

2 months ago

An Endocrinologist Appointment I had an endocrinologist appointment yesterday. It went well. The doctor was super nice and comforting. So I’m supposed to be taking my Synthroid at like 5am, hours before I eat anything or take an…

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#mentalillness #hallucinations #voices #murmurs #radioDJ #whispers #niacin #vitaminc #psychNP #antipsychotics #endocrinologist #GP #prolactin #MTHFRgene #methylation #disability #invisibleillness #chronicinflammation #synthroid #pituitarygland #MRI

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

2 months ago

Nano PRP and Group Therapy It’s been a decent week. I got my nano PRP injections today (it’s Friday). The stem cells from umbilical cords. My knees feel cushioned this afternoon. So does my left big toe. My knees have been i…

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#mentalillness #ignored #group #nanoPRP #injection #physicalhealth #disability #invisibleillness #endocrinologist #prolactinlevels #thyroid #annoyed #therapy

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

3 months ago

Pain I’ve been having some more aches and pains lately. Not that they ever, ever go away. But some days and weeks are better than others. And this week has been more painful than the last couple. Especi…

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#pain #invisibleillness #disability #arthritis #mentalillness #ablations #backpain #kneepain #nanoprp #prp #injections #tryingtofindhopeindarkness

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

3 months ago

Neutrality So, I have a really, really tough time trying to “love” myself. This isn’t a new thing either. It’s not like I woke up this morning and realized this. I’ve hated myself for so many decades that the…

#adelusionalpredisposition

#mentalillness #episodes #stigma #psychosis #innervoice #therapy #neutrality #selfloathing #selfharm #selfhate #selflike #selflove #toxicpositivity #positivity #negativity #invisibleillness #disability #voices #auditoryhallucinations #hallucinations

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

4 months ago

Navigating Trust and Friendships with Schizoaffective Disorder I’m feeling off this week. Socially, emotionally, off. I feel like there’s a part missing in my life. And it’s the social part. I want to be social. But I also completely dread it and don’t want to…

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#mentalillness #schizoaffective #episode #psychosis #friends #invisibleillness #disability #emotional #friendships

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

4 months ago

EMDR Work and a Nutritionist Appointment I’ve been doing EMDR therapy with my one on one therapist for a while now. She’s been having me write down my triggers throughout the weeks. And I’ve noticed that as we go on, I’m getting triggered…

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#mentalillness #episodes #stigma #chronicpain #EMDR #antipsychotics #supplements #SNRI #moodstabilizers #food #nutrition #diet #psychiatrist #healthcare #nutritionist #labwork #guide #eliminationdiet #hallucinations #schizoaffectivedisorder #disability #invisibleillness

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

4 months ago

Voices and Even More Appointments I had a couple following me the other day. I smelled a thick fog of weed smoke as I was walking Bruce, at the front of the apartment complex. As I smelled it, and Bruce smelled the ground, the coup…

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#mentalillness #schizoaffective #episode #symptoms #voices #doctors #appointments #procedures #injections #antipsychotics #tardivedyskinesia #inflammation #arthritis #chronicpain #invisibleillness #disability #hallucination

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

4 months ago

Food and Hallucinations (and More Doctor Appointments) I keep having weeks so busy that I have no time to write. I keep forgetting to fill out my mood app every day too. Then I have to go back and try to remember what was going on on which day and all …

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#disability #invisibleillness #mentalillness #food #nutritionist #hypothyroidism #sugar #mealplanning #hormones #bloodwork #labs #synthroid #sclerotherapy #procedures #oxbile #meat #vegetarian #moodapp #writing #sugarwithdrawal #olfactory #gustatory #hallucinations

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

5 months ago

And Even More Doctor Appointments… I had a lot more doctors appointments this week. I had sclerotherapy done on my left leg on Tuesday this week. One down by my ankle and another in my back calf – both on the left leg. It burn…

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#mentalhealth #arthritis #hypothyroidism #TSHlevels #levothyroxine #varicoseveins #sclerotherapy #foam #rheumatoidarthritis #labwork #bloodwork #cortisonekneeinjections #rheumatologists #nutritionist #orthopedic #paindoctor #therapy #EMDR #nightmares #dreams #processing

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

5 months ago

The Doctor Said… I started crying today. Because of stupid facebook and a bunch of other stuff. But I’m telling you, every single time that I try to reach out or comment on someone’s post on facebook, it backfires …

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#mentalillness #disability #rheumatoidarthritis #arthritis #bonespurs #hurdles #chronicpain #pain #jointstiffness #kneereplacements #bonefusions #bigtoe #ankles #knees #methotrexate #medications #painmanagement #schizoaffectivedisorder #episodes #stigma

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

5 months ago

EMDR and Pain and Memory I’m still in a lot of pain this week. My pain levels have been waking me up at night, every night. It’s quite exhausting. I’ve at least been able to take naps this week. I’m not always able to. But…

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#EMDR #mentalillness #pain #chronicpain #memoryloss #therapy #mentalhealth #lumbarablation #backpain #knee #arthritis #osteoarthritis #earlyonsetarthritis #voices #hallucinations #trauma #rememberingonlytrauma #disability #PTSD #schizoaffectivedisorder #invisibleillness

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

5 months ago

Psychosis, EMDR, and Pain Levels The other day I was walking Bruce and I had a big visual hallucination. It was like the world was suddenly zooming out. I was looking down the sidewalk, and things were getting further away. Like i…

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#mentalillness #invisibleillness #chronicpain #arthritis #RA #CRP #labwork #therapy #EMDR #selfwork #stigma #osteoarthritis #disability #PTSD #traumawork #somatic #painlevels #hallucinations #episode #psychosis #nightmares

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

6 months ago

Schizoaffective Disorder and Money It’s been a slow moving week. I suppose that’s a good thing. I’ve been sorta unmotivated lately – unfocused. I can’t help but worry about the future. I’m paranoid about the next steps and wha…

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#mentalillness #mentalhealth #disability #invisibleillness #money #finances #spending #episode #depression #anxiety #frustration

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

6 months ago

Vein Ablations and Therapy So, the vein ablations are done. Thank goodness. The photo with this entry shows just how drastic of a difference the procedures have made. It’s amazing. I mean, I knew my feet and legs were discol…

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#mentalillness #schizoaffective #schizophrenia #bipolar #veinablations #arthritis #RA #chronicpain #disability #handicapable #invisibleillness #EMDR #therapy #CRP #seronegative #medicaltrauma #knees #sclerotherapy #venousinsufficiency

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

6 months ago

Trauma, Pain Levels, and ADHD I woke up in incredible amounts of pain on Wednesday this week. Incredible. I could barely fucking move. When I finally did, I had to move very, very slowly. Even on my morning walk with Bruce that…

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#mentalillness #CPTSD #PTSD #schizoaffective #bipolar #MDD #BPD #ADHD #psychosis #episode #anosognosia #hyperhidrosis #EMDR #therapy #denial #chronicpain #arthritis #veinablation #disability #invisibleillness #handicapable

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

6 months ago

C•PTSD and Trauma (Medical and Authoritative) I’m 99.9% sure of my PTSD is actually C•PTSD.  I’ve never really given it much thought until this last weekend. I mean, I have, but I haven’t put that much thought into it. I guess I never rea…

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#mentalillness #schizoaffective #schizophrenia #bipolar #ptsd #cptsd #anxiety #trauma #childhood #bullying #medical #teachers #handicapable #disability #emdr #therapy #fight #flight #freeze #fawn #recovery #invisibleillness #chronicpain #chronichealthproblems

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

6 months ago

The Time I Started A Forest Fire I had a good therapy session this week. My therapist has just gotten her EMDR certification a few weeks ago, maybe a month ago now. And she’s using me as a guinea pig – which I love. We worke…

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#mentalillness #schizoaffective #schizophrenia #bipolar #anxiety #paranoia #fear #PTSD #fire #firefighter #forestfire #water #coolwater #EMDR #therapy #flashback #mentalhealth #handicapable #disability #invisibleillness

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

7 months ago

Anesthetics Frustrations But Then a Surprisingly Good Visit With My Psych NP I’m angry this week. Frustrated is maybe a better word. I know it’s from the anesthetics last week. I know it is. It’s always like this. After every procedure. I really wish it wasn’t like this tho…

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#mentalillness #anesthetics #veinablation #therapy #psychologist #healthcare #medications #medmanagement #cleaning #schizoaffective #bipolar #depression #anxiety #exhaustion #frustration #dog #disability #handicapable #invisibleillness #chronicpain #venousinsufficiencies

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

7 months ago

Being Social With Schizoaffective Disorder I don’t know why I can’t just go out and about and be happy that someone wants to spend time with me. Oh wait, I do know why, it’s the voices. They’re always fucking shit up. Everytime I’m away fro…

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#veinablation #chronicpain #disability #invisibleillness #mentalillness #schizoaffective #bipolar #friends #dating #hallucinations #voices #antipsychotics #shame #grief

Kernasaurus

@kernasaurus.bsky.social

7 months ago

Capacity I was having a brunch date with someone Saturday (it went really well!) and he reminded me that people only have so much capacity to deal with things, or to be there for others. Whatever things tho…

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#mentalillness #invisibleillness #schizoaffective #bipolar #anxiety #capacity #friendship #schizophrenia #freeze #validation #communication #brunch #hallucination #depression #understanding #expectation #resentment #handicapable #relationship #stigma #disability