It took a decade of therapy, 2yrs on Prozac,
Up and down steps for me to be able to say out loud what I always knew that shit was crazy AF and I was cast out as the #blacksheepofthefamily for refusing to comply with their alternate facts.
When I took flight I had no fight left, just done
#cptsdlife

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#traumahealing
#cptsdlife
We anchor safety around R joints by creating space w/ breath to expand the restrictions in R fascia.
It takes 30ish days to lay down a neuropathway for a new habit And 90 days to be stored as muscle memory on a cellular level. A rigid body is DNA wisdom signaling to shift

#cptsdlife #cptsdlifelessons #gottaliveittoknowit
#selfcareisthebestfu #blacksheepofthefamily
youtu.be/XIC7dxs2tRI?...

#shesleavinghome
I left home cuz their love demanded my self erasure #selfcareisthebestfu #urthealtar #badgirlwisdom
#traumahealing #blacksheepofthefamily #gottaliveittoknowit #cptsdlife #thebadgirlmysticexperience

#blueskyflight
Social Choices
is Self Care
"When did I know it was time to let go?
How did it feel everytime I went to go open the app?
Where would I began building a new foundation?
Why Now?
And The Delete felt so good"
#cptsdlife
#urthealtar
#thebadgirlmysticexperience
#selfcareisthebestfu

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#cptsdlife #cptsd #microdoseforptsd
🍄Past 2 months I have been on low microdose 2xday And Holy Moly it feels like my nervous is getting a deep steam clean
Has anyone else had a similar experience? It's been a super crazy emotional ride🎢 with my dad's death and current 🍊💩 its constant waves of aches

Procrastinating was just who I always was No big deal in school And then I followed my dream to work 4 myself N that habit of winging it became my nemesis. Took a planning thing And I discovered I was lacking clarity N connection 2 my next step. It stopped the shame spiraling #urthealtar #cptsdlife

We laughed at stupid shit N did fun stuff And they never asked about my feelings or my relationships. My nervous system was traumas N dramas frozen, they gave me a place to rest, to put down the shield, to be off the front line from the pests N predators.
It was never what They made up #cptsdlife

#ColorADay #YellowThu
#coloredpencils #myartstash #SensoryArt #lines
#phonephotography
#badgirlmysticart
#tbiandcptsdextraspicy
#survivorart #originalartphoto
#outsiderartist
#neurodivergentartist
#cronetastic #artalchemist
#womenartists
#cptsdlife
#artistsofbluesky

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#cptsdlife
For me,All about learning how to stop pushing my power to survive. Now focus is being focused on how to move the power I am being given in the present🎁
#gottaliveittoknowit #cptsd #cptsdlifelessons #badgirlwisdom #thebadgirlmysticexperience
#neurodivergentartist
#tbiandcptsdextraspicy

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#dealbreakers for me with Social Apps is they become wingmen for predators. The ick factor is greater then the value they provide. It has been over a decade since my #tbi N every thing I do still w/ a screen is very limited N slow
Left TT& #metafuckery in March
Took 3 months
No regrets
#cptsdlife

under...I decided to turn to mama earth N find out how to reset my circadian rhythms.
I knew it was time to admit it was time to learn how to craft the elements of nature N just maybe it will be different this time
just maybe my sensitive AF feelz are the way
#cptsdlife #witchsky #witchesofbluesky

#cptsdlife
B4 internet I use to spend my nights making mixed tapes for my Wilshire Blvd bus ride to my school on the Westside, I only made art in class where I could keep it from those who would use against me for their needs. I shared my art on social after my traumatic brain injury #fuckem

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#cptsdlife
Even the thought of time management use to feel like chains to me⛓I rode the waves of procrastination🌊 tearful multitasking ⏳ crushing deadlines until it became impossible to sustain after my #traumaticbraininjury
It forced me to plan out 📒✒🚪consider what is possible #gottaliveittoknowit

#selfcareisthebestfu
#cptsdlifelessons
It takes a 28 day cycle to encode a new habit,choice,
plan,strategy,desire  into our nervous system. Consistency layers new cellular 411 best w/ Simplicity #gottaliveittoknowit
#traumahealing
#cptsdlife
#SensitiveAF
#thebadgirlmysticexperience

DAY 72
#100daysofart 
#ColorADay #YellowThu
#HumansofBlueSky
#badgirlmysticart
#thebadgirlmysticexperience #tbiandcptsdextraspicy #survivorart #originalart #outsiderartist
#neurodivergentartist
#cronetastic
#metiszaartist #artalchemist
#mixedmediumart
#womenartists
#cptsdlife
#artistsofbluesky

DAY 57 #100daysofart 
#WackyWednesdayArt
#ColorADay #RedWed
#JuliArty #hot
#badgirlmysticart
#thebadgirlmysticexperience #tbiandcptsdextraspicy #survivorart #originalart #outsiderartist
#neurodivergentartist
#cronetastic
#metiszaartist
#mixedmediumart
#womenartists
#cptsdlife
#artistsofbluesky

#AnimalArtTuesday
#kittens #phoneart
#phonephotography
#badgirlmysticart
#thebadgirlmysticexperience
#tbiandcptsdextraspicy
#survivorart #originalartphoto
#outsiderartist
#neurodivergentartist
#cronetastic #artalchemist #arthealsmyheart
#womenartists
#cptsdlife
#artistsofbluesky

#RockinTuesday
#letitbe #phoneart #smArtist #goal
#phonephotography
#badgirlmysticart
#thebadgirlmysticexperience
#tbiandcptsdextraspicy
#survivorart #originalartphoto
#outsiderartist
#neurodivergentartist
#cronetastic #metiszaartist
#womenartists
#cptsdlife
#artistsofbluesky

DAY 55
#100daysofart 
#ColorADay #OrangeSun #badgirlmysticart
#thebadgirlmysticexperience #tbiandcptsdextraspicy #survivorart #originalart #outsiderartist
#neurodivergentartist
#cronetastic
#metiszaartist #artalchemist #arthealsmyheart
#mixedmediumart
#womenartists
#cptsdlife
#artistsofbluesky

DAY 54
#100daysofart 
#ColorADay #GreenSat
#badgirlmysticart
#thebadgirlmysticexperience #tbiandcptsdextraspicy #survivorart
#originalart #outsiderartist
#neurodivergentartist
#cronetastic
#metiszaartist #artalchemist #arthealsmyheart
#mixedmediumart
#womenartists
#cptsdlife
#artistsofbluesky

People... Ew! When You're One Random Conflict Away from Quitting Society You know that thing where you have a tense encounter with someone, and then the nauseous replay loops in your head non-stop for days? Let’s discuss how conflict affects people with CPTSD.

open.substack.com/pub/ellentif...
#explorepage #cptsd #conflictresolution #complextrauma #emotionalintelligence #people #ewpeople #humaninteraction #peoplearetricky #cptsdhelp #cptsdhealing #complexptsd #cptsdresources #cptsdlife #emtionalintelligence #dysfunctionalpeople #rudepeople #trickypeople

When you suddenly get the adhd urge to build a vocal booth out of the blue.

#diy #creative #mybodywillpayforittomorrow #FibromyalgiaWarrior #fibrofighter #latediagnosislife #unmaskingtrauma #blessed #adhdlife #cptsdlife #thankyouoyasama #thankyoutenrionomikoto #joyouslife #reslience

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✋🏼 high five!
#cptsdlife

Part 4 of 4: Abuse- Systemic Narcissistic Abuse (Beyond Individual Relationships) Have institutions, organizations, or our government conditioned you to accept, normalize, or even participate in abusive behaviors without realizing it? Want to know how?

Have we been conditioned to narcissistic abuse on a cultural level? Do we participate? #narissism #narcissisticabuse #narcissist #cptsd #healingjourney #healinghelp #complextrauma #complexptsd #cptsdhelp #badpolitics #corporatelife #federaljobs #cptsdlife #ptsd ellentift.substack.com/p/part-4-abu...

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#blueskyflight #cptsdlife
#dumpthezuck
Deleting all my Meta Apps was ez when I found out The Zuck agreed to align w/ P25 N that was the deal breaker. A group hell bent to strip me of my rights N criminalize my art.
As a kid I had to live with my predator til I was able to get out. Never again